Comments | drunkensailor: running scared

drunkensailor

running scared

Jan 14, 2006 03:17

i can't write anything. my mind is racing but i can't write a thing. i just keep holding my head and staring at the keys. something is immensely wrong with me.

along that track, i had a sort of moment tonight, for the first time. for minutes, i thought, "what is wrong with me?" and stared in the mirror, and suddenly it was creeping upon me, an ( Read more... )

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robbabubbles January 14 2006, 20:04:10 UTC

You are most definitely not a bad writer. No one could be expected to understand how you feel that has not been there themselves. I can sympathize but I can't empathize. I can, however, empathize with anxiety attacks in general and I know what it feels like to think you're sick or going to die. I hope it was just an anxiety attack, and my gut tells me it was. I hope you're feeling better this morning.

drunkensailor January 18 2006, 14:00:41 UTC

I don't really know. Anxiety has been so overwhelming inside of me lately, not just during "attacks" but at all times. K-pins seem to be coming up short lately. I might plead for an up in dosage, or even a switch to Xanax. We'll see what they do. I am always at the mercy of my doctors.

purplepsilon January 15 2006, 01:14:46 UTC

Probably only by a few weak analogies, but I think I do understand. There has to be something besides inertia.

drunkensailor January 18 2006, 13:53:10 UTC

Inertia?

purplepsilon January 18 2006, 17:39:57 UTC

The ruts of what we're doing or maybe even what we used to do.

1930 January 15 2006, 03:30:04 UTC

We are a lot alike, you know?

drunkensailor January 18 2006, 13:53:43 UTC

I truly think that we are. I wish that I could meet you someday.

ourlipsraw January 15 2006, 03:33:23 UTC

you are writing and so well you've impacted me dear.
you're tufflove, <33

drunkensailor January 18 2006, 13:55:13 UTC

I'm glad I'm reaching somebody, even when i'm personally failing.

What i wouldn't give for one chance to be anything but "tough" love.

I am still reading you constantly, with endless fascination.

acmedunveiled January 15 2006, 05:51:47 UTC

Well, it is coming up on a year now. From what I've read from other people in your situation, that's a pretty damn common feeling. Don't know if that makes you feel better or not, but maybe it's perspective. Anyway. You worry me with your drugs. I try to tell myself it's not my business, so I'll leave it at that. You do what you have to do to get by. My thoughts, as usual, are with you. Oh, and I think it's really amusing that our sleep schedules are now completely opposite. I wonder if we are ever conscious at the same time now. *grin*

drunkensailor January 18 2006, 13:57:57 UTC

I'm not taking any drugs you have any need to be concerned about anymore, and we both know it.

You never know when i'm awake; so call me anytime, and i will do my best to be at the other end of the line.