I think that I should write more positive things about my life in this journal, but it seems like whenever I feel down I have to write in here ( Read more... )

I only write in here when I am at work, or studying too much and I need to do something else with my time... oh no they didn't, phone zoo, madradstalkers, madradhair and myspace are my biggest time wasters... blahhh ( Read more... )

I think about my little self sitting here, then I think about the store, then the state, then the country, then the continents then the world... I am such a little spec ( Read more... )

I hate that i feel so sad because of you ( Read more... )

The problem of hope is hope gives you falsities that make your brain trick you. You start believing in false hope, you start believing in the things you want to. It will never come true ( Read more... )

In a dream, you were sitting waiting by the door for me ( Read more... )

I thought I was better ( Read more... )

Tears are always falling from my eyes ( Read more... )

Every day that goes by seems to get worse, different... I see things in a new light, but that isn't necessarily better. I heard crows this morning that reminded me of autumn time.... and then I realized I wouldn't be with him when the seasons change. He isn't in my life anymore and it hurts so bad. I am so confused by this... I guess it just shows ( Read more... )

I tried praying, I tried being spiritual, I am trying patience, I am trying, I hope someone knows that I am desperately trying to get better. To get well and to stop having these horrible feelings of loss