Looking for techniques | Spencer/Brendon | NC-17 | AU |

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Looking for techniques
Spencer/Brendon | NC-17 | ~ 8000 words | AU |
Spencer can't believe himself for trying something like this. He can't believe that he'd risk his friendship with Brendon, his friendships with everyone else if Brendon decided to tell, his place in the school if Brendon caused enough fuss. Except that when Brendon's tongue

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[damnpetewentz]

this is wonderfully perfect. I don't even like Brendon/Spence, except you always find just that art of them that somehow works. I love this, and all their little fears and inhibitions of the 60s.
memories

[disarm_d]

I'm glad that you liked it even though you're not a fan of Brendon/Spencer. Thank you! <3<3<3

[damnpetewentz]

something about your stories...brendon and spencer just work. I always read your brendon/spencer. :)

[disarm_d]

Oh, dude, that's awesome! I'm really glad, because I love Spencer/Brendon more than oxygen most days. Thanks for sharing in my glee. :D

[the9thdoctor]

Oh.. my... fucking... GOD!
That was amazing!
This is going straight into my memories, I loved every line of this.
Thanks for posting!

[disarm_d]

Dude, thank you so much for reading! I'm really glad you liked it! Yay!

[moondarri]

LOL. I feel like a total dork for all the 'help' I spammed you with for this. *facepalm*

So. This was awesome. I can't believe you got it done so quickly. You're one dedicated woman. xD

It was seriously wonderful. I love the universe in which this was set, & OMG, Brendon in a tweed jacket. Dude. <333

[disarm_d]

Dude, no! Your help was totally amazing!

So. This was awesome. I can't believe you got it done so quickly. You're one dedicated woman. xD
WELL, I HAD A MIDTERM THIS MORNING. SO, NATURALLY, WORKING ON THE STORY WAS ABSOLUTELY THE ONLY THING I DID YESTERDAY. I *am* dedicated... just not to the right things! Oh man. :(

I'm glad the uncertainty and and tentativeness came though! I loved the 'lads' as well, and I'm allowed to say that because it was Chex's (provetheworst) idea! I came up with the sod off though, so, I'll say YAY! I'm glad you liked that one too. *pets your culturally unbalanced self* :D

I'm glad that you liked the ending. I was toying with the idea of having a less, as you say, hopeful ending. But I just couldn't do that to them! They steal my heart away. Oh, Brendon/Spencer. How I love you.

Anyways, thank you so much! I'm super glad that you liked it! <3<3<3

[moondarri]

So. Um. I may or may not have started the Pete/Patrick side of this story yesterday.

Would you mind terribly if I wrote that? The storyline about their relationship & getting expelled? It's just ever so fascinating, & like last time, the scenario is totally eating my brain. *flutters eyelashes*

[disarm_d]

Dude, go for it! I look forward to reading it when you write it!

[silvercurse]

Ugh, I haven't even read this yet, but you had me at photoshoot, Spencer, sweater vest. Because seriously.
And Spencer/Brendon makes me soso happy. I know I'm going to die from glee upon reading this but I'll revive myself in order to re-comment.
Oh god.

[disarm_d]

THAT PICTURE IS MY DESKTOP. I STARE AND STARE. OH GOD. SPENCER SMITH, HOW ARE YOU SO ATTRACTIVE! AND, I ALSO LOVE BRENDON/SPENCER! SO. YAY!

YOUR ICON. SPENCERRRRRR.

[silvercurse]

YES, ICON! I was doing my ~super important~ assignment for illustration class in Photoshop when I saw that picture posted. IT HAD TO WAIT BECAUSE SPENCER IN A SWEATER VEST HAD TO ME ICONED THERE AND THEN. BECAUSE SERIOUSLY. HE KILLS ME.
And Brendon/Spencer, kinda my otp. So this is why I'm often lurking around your journal. \o/

But this. This could not go without a comment. I've had a tab open since I've finished it ready to comment, but airgiodslv expressed it so perfectly, I had no clue what else I could add. girlintheband and I talked about this story extensively but nothing still. But! I must tell you, this has set a new standard for me. It broke me in the best way possible. Just everything that I've read after this... ugh, *flaily sigh*.

Oh, and you wouldn't horribly mind if I added you at all? Because seriously.

[disarm_d]

Your icon is gorgeous, so I'd say that it was an excellent use to time! :D

Spencer/Brendon is maybe kind of my OTP too! Hee! I'm so glad that you share that joy.

And oh! Yay! I'm so glad that you liked it. airgiodslv left an amazing comment, this is very true! I'm seriously still all glowy from that one. But, I'm glad that you liked it too! It's kind of amazing to me that you talked about it.

Thank you! Seriously!

And yes! Please! Let's be friends. :)

[airgiodslv]

Oh god. I think this broke me, completely, in a way very few things ever have. I don't even know where to begin.

Okay. Yes. The sense of the taboo was stronger in this piece than I have ever read it before, anywhere. We take a lot for granted now, even with the political climate still shifting, because it isn't ingrained in us like it was for people even one generation ago, how forbidden it was, how utterly anathema. It wasn't just that I was hyperaware of the door possibly opening every time they were together, the idea that Ryan knew Spencer well enough to guess, the danger of someone calling them on it. It was that they knew all of these things, and then on an even deeper level they were afraid of doing something they knew was wrong. What they were afraid of half the time wasn't even discovery, it was their own feelings, because those feelings were not acceptable to have. That hit me harder than anything else, how deeply they believed, and of course they did, they were raised by families who believe it, in a culture that

[airgiodslv]

I loved that the focus on them was so tight, because even though Jon and Ryan were there in support, and used well, I really felt like the rest of the world had ceased to exist, and all there was for these two people in the whole entire world was each other. Even when they were apart, even when they knew they shouldn't be thinking about it, there was still nothing else in their minds. I was completely grounded in Spencer's pov, totally, but there was still no doubt in my mind that Brendon felt exactly the same way he did, that they were both struggling with the exact same conflicts and desires and fears. You showed it in their words, in the way they finished each other's sentences and danced around the subject so clearly on their minds, and with every single millisecond of physical contact between them. Because every one mattered so much; their elbows bumping together was as damning as a kiss. Thinking about something like sex, being naked together, was so out of the question it never even crossed Spencer's mind, wasn't allowed to

[sparktastic]

Um.

What she said.

*sends flowers*

[disarm_d]

\o/

:)