Looking for techniques | Spencer/Brendon | NC-17 | AU |

[disarm_d]

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Spencer/Brendon | NC-17 | ~ 8000 words | AU |
Spencer can't believe himself for trying something like this. He can't believe that he'd risk his friendship with Brendon, his friendships with everyone else if Brendon decided to tell, his place in the school if Brendon caused enough fuss. Except that when Brendon's tongue

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[notshybutsly]

Wow, I can't think of anything good to say because I'm a little teary eyed but I just love how...intense this seems.

I just. I came to see you," Spencer whispers. "Do you want me to leave?"

Brendon pulls back the corner of the comforter and Spencer crawls into his bed, into his arms, and holds on tight.
Seriously amazing, no words.

[disarm_d]

Oh, thank you so much! I'm seriously thrilled that you liked it. <3<3<3

[echoelf]

okay. this was made of win for many reasons.

1. jon walker uses the word lad. for some reason, this makes me unspeakably happy.
2. brendon wears a cardigan
3. there is a happy ending
4. it was fucking hot.

now, the thing is, reason 4 is actually kind of awesome, because, for whatever reason, lately i've just become desensitized to stuff. maybe because after 5.5 years you kind of become immune. anyway, this is the first story i've read in a while where i was really affected by the sex. i think it's because you do such a good job of capturing the atmosphere of the situation, which you mostly accomplish by getting inside your characters' heads so well. it's little lines like Spencer needs to roll away, he needs to have stopped this five minutes ago, but he lets Brendon pull their bodies together, line their hips up that convey how helpless he is to stop what's going on

[disarm_d]

Chex (provetheworst) gets complete credit for Jon's use of lads. I had it in as kids, and she was all, no dude. Jon should say Lads. Which was the most awesome idea ever, so, five stars to Chex.

but if you want to polish this at all for whatever reason, you should definitely proofread.
Umm, I don't really know what to say except that I did proofread it several times, and I had two different betas look it over as well. Sorry if there were still mistakes, but yeah. There was definitely already an attempt at proofreading that occurred.

Thanks for reading.

[echoelf]

she should be commended.

and i'm sure you did proofread because there weren't any glaring mistakes, i just notice like. everything. but yeah. it was nothing major.

[disarm_d]

I commend her regularly. Have no fear!

*delurks*

[longtime_lurker]

Brendon/Spencer is totally not my pairing, but every time I read yours, it feels like my OTP. God, this was utterly compelling. You did a fantastic job of infusing every scene with a sense of desperate, desperate yearning; Spencer's moment of wonder at the "skin everywhere" rang especially true.

And the note of cautious hope at the end felt just right. In my neck of the woods, same-gender attraction is still as taboo as it is in this story, and Ryan's "It isn't always going to be like this, you know. It isn't always going to matter" made my heart twinge kind of a lot.

Plus, FROTTAGE. \o/

Re: *delurks*

[disarm_d]

Thanks so much for delurking.

Brendon/Spencer is totally, totally my favorite pairing, so I'm actually really glad that you can get into it as well!

I'm so glad that you liked the line about 'skin everywhere'. That was always the line that I wanted the story to lead up to (if that makes sense) so I'm really glad this it worked the way I was hoping it was going to.

I'm glad that the ending felt right to you. It sucks how much homophobia still exists. :(

Anyway, thank you so much for your lovely comment. I really appreciated it. <3

[girlintheband]

"Yes," Ryan says. "It isn't always going to be like this, you know. It isn't always going to matter."

"You think so?" asks Spencer.

"Yes," Ryan says, with absolute certainty. "Things are going to change. One day."

oh god. oh, ryan. oh, spencer. this is so bloody gorgeous, this whole piece. the nervousness and the awkwardness of the era; the way they know that what they're doing wouldn't be accepted, but how they overcome it anyway. i love how you worked in more of the outside society into this, with pete & patrick's expulsion, and how the rest of the world would react to homosexuality in their midst. i just love this so so much, because it's so utterly believable.

[disarm_d]

Oh, I'm so glad that you thought it was believable! That's awesome to hear.

Thank you so much for your comment, I'm really glad that you liked it. Thank you! :D

[aylaranzz]

This was really good. I really enjoyed it. I'm glad that it has a somewhat happy ending for them as they deserve it after all the doubt they had.

[disarm_d]

I'm glad you liked it! I would hope a happy ending for them as well. Thanks a bunch. :)