i've lost all faith in humanity. for real.

thats all. maybe there will be more to follow.

i remember now why i stopped trusting people. its that piercing feeling of betrayal, the one you can't get out of your head. on one hand, the optimistic part of me says that maybe this means that maybe i'm not totally closed off to trusting people forever (if recent events haven't changed that), but the other part of me just... well... i don't get ( Read more... )

moving day! exciting, unnerving, and tiring.

all in all, i want it to be done and to be moved. if i could only just skip the process, this would be way better.

i promised myself that i wouldnt let this happen. that i wouldn't act like this, and feel like this. and be hurt and humiliated like this. but i guess that's how life works. i need to make a decision, stick to it, and face the consequences. i just wish it wasnt him ( Read more... )

i just dont...

know if i can do this anymore. i want to, but i know its wrong and i'm tired of being selfish. also, i'm just emotionally drained.

i can tell because suddenly the temperature rose 30 degrees and wham! summer. just like that. perhaps next year we could work in a period of acclimation... you know... "spring". where did that go? i dont remember minding the heat so much to the point where i havent been able to sleep, but i think thats because of "spring ( Read more... )

and not in the sense of the staind song. thats for sure. finally done with second year of vet school... and FINALLY have some time to just sit and take it in. its funny... i had convinced myself that i wasn't stressed... wasn't crazed during finals.... but my feelings since finals have ended have been volatile and slightly incomprehensible. i ( Read more... )

so as i've been successfully procrastinating, i've been pondering all but things involving veterinary public health... which brings me to my random question for the day ( Read more... )

i suddenly feel like i've lost everything and everyone. its so scary. i just don't want to get out of bed. i want to sit around and mope and feel sorry for myself. i look back on my life two years ago and things were perfect. everything in order... now all i want to do right now is cry forever and ever ( Read more... )

i remember when LJ used to be such a good representation of my life, cause i had time to update every day. it saddens me to see that i've only updated it like 10 times in the past few months. maybe i'll make a conscious effort to change that. someone remind me tomorrow or something....