.. Time passes on pretty fast. The wind blows my through my hair, back and forth, and soon the snow will start to fall upon my shoulders. And on my journey to move on, no goal has been decided, but to move on. Get away from the past and discover a new challenge, a reason to live, whatsoever.

Did I change? I have no clue. Maybe a bit, but somebody ( Read more... )

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I really can't take any of this!! My brain is going to explode, all the pressur eis on me and I'm too weak to do this on my own.. And everyone constantly yelling treating me like some kid fuck I really can't take it!! I just wanna perish, leave this fucking world of hell, I want God to take me into his arms right nwo!! So I can stop being puzzled, ( Read more... )

My dad just left and I'm all alone again. And I'm hurt because pf these dreams I keep having, I just want them to go away..
In my mind we are together, though I have no particular interest in that guy.. I guess? And my mind wonders off again, searhing for that happiness I'll never find. Because happiness is unreal. And whatever I want, I cannot have ( Read more... )

And then again, sometimes it really is true to forget about everything, and to move on.. And I was always better off hurt, and all alone..

Pulls a gun out and says these words:

Why does it go on like this? Why cannot we be close and be friends like most of the rest? Why can't we understand our mistakes and share our joys? He's far though he's standing right next to me. He had to leave but he's leaving one day later, but even if he stayed, it wouldn't bring up the courage inside of me ( Read more... )

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I feel liek such a prisoner in this home.. I can;t live properly, well.. the way I want. And each day is as boring as the last ; I'd rather die then live another one like this. I gotta look both ways before opening something, before reading something, before doing anything I've planned. Everything seems wrong, here. Writing my thoughts down on a ( Read more... )

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I really can't take this!!!

All I do is shytt. Shytt. SHYTT. Nothing better? Huh? Is there anything that I know how to do that isn't shytt? I'm messing up my lfe big time, and I'm not strong enough to change things back.. I don't even get why people even like me as a friend. What is so special about me? NOTHING because that's what I'm good at. ( Read more... )

I wish people actually cared about what ever I write...

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I just read some article somewhere off the web, had nothing else better to do.. It's pretty late here and I'm tired as hell. The day passed very slowly, and even talking to my friends couldn't change the mood, the frown upon my face. I feel like nothing and nobody gives a damn about anything I think, anything I feel, anything I do.. And then more ( Read more... )