holding my head.
haunted once again by the songs i used to write, but cannot remember how to play.
i find myself forgetting the notes themselves or the actual noises they formed, remembering instead something in my head that was only pretending to be sound before it was made ( Read more... )

and before that even was the nightmare that tricked me into dreaming it ( Read more... )

i get reminded of how safe we used to feel in the dark. stumbling through it, dumping out waste ( Read more... )

I go through lengths of time as big as days, lost in thought.

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somewhere in the random access memory banks of this computer lies a defect. this leak will ( Read more... )

grandaddy withdrew from being alive on wednesday ( Read more... )

i have to stop ignoring my body, which i've been doing habitually out of spite for the past couple years, ever since "the uprising" down in san diego ( Read more... )

i will get back to you.

dawn. what i'm just gonna stare at that word? i'm going to sit here and stare at that word. unpleasant ( Read more... )

i couldn't sleep, but instead of writing things down i just talked to myself for three hours. this activity, this conversation, had the format of talking 'to' someone. and even though eventually as i went along i began to compose these ideas as if i were in fact addressing 'not myself' (another person/people) i must admit that this can only be ( Read more... )