I dont have much time because im at work, but i just need a place to vent to. venting to my friends only results in conflicted outside opinions and i become torn between what friends i should listen to. im finally realizing tht i need to start listening to MYSELF more and others less, but ive become so used to not making my own decisions that ive ( Read more... )

i had a dream that i was roomies w/ robbies girlfriend and her two friends. we hated each other, and i was runnin around w mike doin sthg, and i was pissed but i didnt want robbie to know so i played it off...and then i heard the two of them fighting wicked loud over sthg, so i tried to listen but all i could hear was "FINE ILL JUST GIVE IT TO ( Read more... )

Are you telling me that you've never seen an angel ( Read more... )

i feel so completely lost and alone, and i knwo thats not the case but its how i really feel right now ( Read more... )

well i had a whole list going but it all got deleted ...so thats my new #1 complaint. im at work so i cant write right now, but i am basically having an alltogehter shitty life right now between school, work, anne/myles, robbie, mike, my parents, my phone, my car, etc. nothing seems to be going my way...anyway maybe ill have time to write about it ( Read more... )

right now i miss you robbie...a lot. i want to call but i cant because i feel like you dont want me to. "why do i always use the words that cut the deepest when i know how much it hurts you, oh baby why do i do that to you"

\= i love you =/

idk..today was depressing. i finally flipped on robbie and said that i dont like who i am becoming, and he wanted me to come up so i did but he didnt say much except that he wishes things would go back to normal. i dont understand because hes the one that broke up w me. he said he needed time to fix his depression but hes not even trying to do that ( Read more... )

things i hate at the moment ( Read more... )

i HATE feeling helpless. i have lost control of everything in my life. my car got towed and i had to pay 110 to get it out, but i shouldnt have been towedso its bullshit. then i didnt have the money to pay so my nana insists on paying but she doesnt even have enough money to take care of herself nevermind me!! i hate taking money from people i feel ( Read more... )

talked to my sister in Memphis ( Read more... )