*sigh*

[crzylilbitch]

idk..today was depressing. i finally flipped on robbie and said that i dont like who i am becoming, and he wanted me to come up so i did but he didnt say much except that he wishes things would go back to normal. i dont understand because hes the one that broke up w me. he said he needed time to fix his depression but hes not even trying to do that ... im so confused. i know that i am in love with him but i also know that i could lose him. i cry randomly and for no real reason and everything just feels empty. xmas break is gonna suck

tryin to occupy my time
with anything that will numb the pain
tryin to fill my wild mind
anything to make you go away

but you just keep coming back
like a boomerang, you hit me hard
i cant let go of what we had
cant lose the love we shared
no, no i cant

so my friends dragged me out of bed
they said "no more cryin for him tonight"
thot too much, got a poundin head
they keep tellin me ill be alright

but you just keep coming back
like an old memory that hit me hard
i cant let go of what we had
cant lose the love we shared
no, no i cant

its reached this point, gotten so bad
that i cant even finish a song

and you just keep coming back
like an old & faded photograph
i cant let go of what we had
cant lose the love we shared
no, no i cant
cant get the image out of my head
no, no i cant

*sigh*