Well here i am sitting at the desk wondering if i will ever become whole again from the humiltation that i had to face. i knew professor studmuffin was wearing too much whatever he put on. jesus i fianted i hope he learned his lesson. i knew i shouldnt have done this but not that iv opend the gates to emoutin its hard to close them and not ( Read more... )

I can smell candy yams even before he entered the room... apperently he was trigger happy with the cologne this mouring but of course all i could think of was getting the shower with him to take it off. then i heard the door creak, i trianed my eyes on the paper in front of me so that i could exacute part one the sexy glance up. he enters "good ( Read more... )

i am a bitch and a heartless one at that. i take pleasure from others pain and rejoice when i feel like i have made someone hurt. i kill all that i love and stab it till it is blood ridden and motionless. i know that this get to me when i am old and living a lone and have no cats becuase i would kill them too. which is why i want to change my ways ( Read more... )

here we go again

i hate being far away

comp still dead
im still sick
still feel like poo
still pushing people away

also iv found it odd and scary that iv met and seen people on my campus that look like people on the UMBC campus or how are firends with chris i havnt found everyone but its getten close and it makes me home sick so in the end i hate them

boo on you

wheres my nyquil

im usless sometimes and i dont understand things at all. i want to ask questions but i dont want to know the anwsers and i cant leanone one person to vent to even though hes the best thing to happen to me. i cried beaucse what he says is so beautiful and i know them to be true. how can i be so lucky but feel like poo

i am a hopless romantic. its been like this all my life. its the reason iv only had two boyfriends(im with one now) and the reason i took so long to actually kiss one. i feel that there such thing as true love and that its out there and i deserve it. so i limit my self and i think about who i am with carfully and i look for a realtionship that is ( Read more... )

i found out i can blow bubbles and walk at the same time and chew and decided that it alone makes me multi talented. i tilt my head up and try to blow the biggest bubbles hoping that it would lift me up and lose me in the sky. then pop and id fall back down to earth to the ground to reality until i could managie to press the gum flat on the roof ( Read more... )

as you grow older people tell you that you lose friends its just the way its goes they glow and then die out into dust like the stars. but my comrads they have dimmed and not bcuase of time but becuase of me. i am so jaded tothink that nothing lasts that i pushed them out and away for me. i made excuses and lies to make it seem like its was ment to ( Read more... )

so today is my 1 year and 4 month annversy with my lover man. lol. and to make it even better tho i do not want to jinx myself that i finally feel better. iv been sick for a bit but today i woke up had a slight prob but after 11 i was dandy. i hate boys.... alot there hurtful and shallowe, which is why im glad i found a man to love and who will ( Read more... )