So yeah Hi, I'm still alive! Still in Aurora. I work from home now which is pretty sweet, mostly in that I can roll out of bed in my PJs or less and there I am, at work. Been in therapy, which seems to be helping. I'm still nutzo of course, but at least now I KNOW I'm being nutzo and can hopefully probably maybe try to stop myself from acting so ( Read more... )

I wish I had someone to talk to that I could be completely honest with, besides C of course. I'm allowed to be open in my journal, but its the only place I can be. Even then, I feel like I need to censor myself ( Read more... )

i'm in Portland right now, sitting in the quaint Fireside Coffee Lodge, which has become a favourite haunt of ours in our quest for internet access.

I am having an absolutely amazing vacation. So amazing in fact, that I was supposed to have returned home three days ago, but extended my trip until Tuesday. Thinking back on the last week, its hard to ( Read more... )

I'm super excited, because this week so far I have two paid shoots! Now, two may not seem like a big number, but two in two days is awesome for someone just starting out! Tonight is some video work for someone I shot a couple weeks ago, and tomorrow I'm shooting for a national newspaper! The editor told me that if they like my shots, they'll ( Read more... )

At least, mine are.

Oh well. 

I don't know how much more of this ***damn annoying, anxious, stressful, unfulfilling, and unrewarding**** "life" I can take!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Reflecting on the past year, I've accomplished a lot emotionally. This time last year, I promised myself that I would try harder not to be taken advantage of. I think I've been mostly successful in that. I've raised my standards in terms of relationships, which although still has me single, I'm at least happy enough with myself and my choices thus ( Read more... )

How do you recognise love? Is there "10 sure signs that you're in love" published somewhere? Or is it a feeling, a belief that you just have, something beyond words? How does one know they're in love? And is it always mutual, does it happen at the same time for both people, is it really forever ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I've been in a relationship that I thought I would have trouble adjusting. I worried about having enough to talk about, silly things like do I make the move to hold his hand or not, will he be annoyed if I call him, will he think I'm pretty enough... But I found over the past few days that I don't have to worry ( Read more... )

I don't want to jinx it... But I have a boyfriend (who actually calls himself that!)

And, a hickey. And a sore bum. And boobs. And various other body parts.