god is such a bastard. i think maybe the gnostics had it right and jehovah is an evil ancient wargod who must be overthrown. our continued worship of him gives him power and keeps the world a horrible place ( Read more... )

writing used to come so easily to me. the older i get the harder it gets. granted i've let myself get way out of the habit or writing, but still. when i was young poems used to pour out of my head almost as fast as i could write them down. granted they weren't any good, but that didn't stop me and i was crazy prolific. i used to write them in class ( Read more... )

i now reside in very, very hot and extremely sunny southern california. the city of palmdale to be exact, which is about an hour or so north of los angeles, just the other side of the san gabriel mountains in the antelope valley. palmdale is home to full metal jacket drill sargeant r lee ermey and rapper afroman, because he got high, and now home ( Read more... )

this town is a great sucking, squelching black hole of a rectum that won't let me escape its soul-shattering gravity. its my attachment to the material that keeps me here though, so maybe i'm the asshole. unfettered by possessions i could leave reasonably soon, a few weeks perhaps. i figured out that i can go at least 250 miles on a tank of gas... ( Read more... )

way back in open diary days of old, when the only diary site besides od was mydeardiary...and it sucked...i used to write in this diary religiously. this was before od+ and banner ads and the glut of brooding schoolgirls with fifty diaries each. od was a nice little community then, big enough to be a world unto itself, with plenty of new dairies ( Read more... )

someone asked me recently for music recommendations so i decided to make a music topic. its completely pointless, but whatever, so let me pause for a bonghit and i'll get started ( Read more... )

memories of an event that took place a couple days after 9/11/01...13th or 14th perhaps. was hanging out with friends..aaron, dave, pat...taking bonghits and getting ready to go out for a few drinks. we may have had a few drinks already. pat put on aaron's daishiki and wrapped a towel around his head and started acting like a retarded, drunken ( Read more... )

misery and woe. desperation. futility. sadness. poverty ( Read more... )

alright y'all. just wanted to check in, let you know i'm ok. i've survived the last 24 hours without seriously damaging either myself or any nearby animals, vegetables or minerals ( Read more... )

right now i want to fuck everything in sight and i couldn't fucking possibly say fuck enough times to get the fucking point across. nickeys in california, has been for about three weeks now, which means no boom boom for three weeks. working on some nice fucking callouses on my right hand though. but even though i just jerked off not that long ago i ( Read more... )