normally i take these things with a grain of salt but this one actually pretty much nailed me.

My Personality

Neuroticism

47
Extraversion

25
Openness To Experience

75
Agreeableness

49
Conscientiousness

16
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Bebo, MySpace Codes and MySpace Layouts by Pulseware Survey Software
summary: You are introverted, ( Read more... )

its less than a year now until my thirtieth birthday and i still feel as angsty as a teenager. moreso than i ever did as a teenager actually. perhaps as we age we become more at home with who we are but also more mentally ill, so nothing ever gets any better. maybe its just that i've done nothing. i want to say i feel chewed up by life but....what ( Read more... )

i need to stay away from the back space button. i wonder, if i could retrieve all the words i've caused to be swallowed by backspace over the years what kind of odd little piece of literature i would end up with. i could call it "ode to self-censorship" and then lock it away in a flaming file cabinet at the bottom of a mining shaft in mongolia ( Read more... )

yes diary, its true. i've been back online for a couple weeks now and i'm only just writing now. blame it on cable tv and newfound internet access after deprivation from both for six months ( Read more... )

just dashing off a quick note to keep you all updated. lost my internet access sometime in november. been struggling financially the last few months, car died, was out of work for a few weeks, got new car, promptly got rear-ended by drunk driver who fled the scene of the accident, missed more work, got car fixed, been working, trying to pay off my ( Read more... )

i graduate from rehab next tuesday. been there for, oh, a couple months now. it wasn't so bad i guess. i mean i could think of much better things to do with my days off, but it wasn't entirely horrible. it helped that my counselor is capable of recognizing the fact that just because i like to smoke a little weed every now and then doesn't make me a ( Read more... )

so i found out that this guy i've worked with for five years, the resident mormon of my place of employment and therefor a relatively clean living guy, no alcohol or drugs, no tobacco, chuch on sundays, etc., is a registered sex offender. improper contact with a boy and girl ages 1-13. its been pointed out to me that the actual offense could've ( Read more... )

how much regret can one human being pack into a lifetime? i think the answer is probably frightening. if i don't change something soon i believe i'm going to find out. it would be nice to think that karma existed. surely if it did the latter part of my life will be like an ecstatic party with gushing rivers of wine and unfettered outpourings of ( Read more... )

its 1 in the afternoon and i've yet to go to sleep. well, thats not entirely true, i did nap for a couple hours after drinking all that southern comfort last night, but i doubt that really counts as rest. now i'm sitting here sweating in the heat, listening to illegally downloaded mp3s and wishing i wasn't on probation so i could smoke some pot and ( Read more... )

what the hell was mick jagger so damned happy about when he wrote "can't get no satisfaction" because i can't get any fucking satisfaction and i sure as hell don't feel like singing about it. at least not an uptempo rock n roll song. i could sing the bored white boy blues but thats so lame. i want to just run away, like that runaway bride with the ( Read more... )