it's funny, i can always tell when something is wrong... emotionally. ive always been a reader, but when i'm unhappy and i dont know how to fix it, i read so much more than normal. like in the past three days, ive finished 3 books. if i manage to get lost within the lines of fiction, then i wont have to think about my own disastrous nonfiction ( Read more... )

well... here i was already to say fuck it/fuck you... and then here you come all sweet-talkin' and pretty. and here i am again, finding myself in the same goddamned state of  "muchpissedoffedness."***  and i'm not surprised, but it makes me hate myself even more than i already do. it's an evil cyclicle action and i'm beginning to really want to ( Read more... )

i've managed to cry myself to sleep for the past three nights. and i know that at least one of them was because of you. the others, well, that's all my own emotional baggage, but the fact that even one was because of you makes me a little more angry than anything else. and the bitch of it is, that i'm doing something, and while it's not for you, it ( Read more... )

you act like it's so easy... to just.... but it's not. and you frustrate the fuck out of me... and yet im still comin' back for more. and i find myself arguing points that dont even really matter... and for what? for who ( Read more... )

an somebody please give me answers? 'cause i cant seem to come up with them on my own anymore... and i know that's too easy, but when you're college class ring is mocking you every time you look at your hand, what are you supposed to do ( Read more... )

It's 12:37am and I just cracked myself an ice-cold Bud Light, one of those new-fangled ones in the aluminum bottle, I mean it was on sale!!! But, I just figured out why, it's a "pry-off." What kind of crap is that? All I have to say, is it's a good thing i have a few bottle opener key chains around here! Otherwise, I might have had to use the ( Read more... )

"I have bumped into my shadow. I have learned to scratch my own back. It’s a wall that I have traveled but never scaled. I have tried many things. I felt the fire burning at my feet. It’s those times when I feel most alive. It is how I chose to hide my grief. But WHAT’S THE MATTER with this world that I cannot even leave my room? I think the whole ( Read more... )

i'm pissed. maybe i shouldnt be, but goddamnit, i am ( Read more... )

i lie awake at night and think about things that you said to me, because i don't know what they mean, if anything. i dont know if i want them to mean anything or if they were even supposed to mean anything... but yet i find myself sleepless and i wonder... were you really sorry? sorry for all that shit... and were you really jealous that it wasn't ( Read more... )

Okay, so I was reading my daily news, as I always do, on cnn.com (and always followed by bbc.com!) and i stumbled upon this article.  Yes friends, a man in San-Fran bit off his wife's bottom lip because she called him a "short man."  And the only thought that came to my mind, "How very Mike Tyson of him."  I haven't decided if this makes me a bad ( Read more... )