excuse my complaining... but i do believe that i'm technologically cursed ( Read more... )

just a quick update... things are going well.

like i said... quick. ;)

kisses...

Dear Karma ( Read more... )

i caved.

i guess that i'm not as strong as i make myself out to be...

but i tried. and i shall probably have to try again, much to my dismay.

im trying something for the next 3-5 days. i havent  decided if i'm going for 3 or 5, it all depends on how easy it is or isnt. let's be honest, how easy it isnt. it's an experiment. ... and no, i dont have a need to go into details... for fear the plan will fall into the wrong hands, i will say that it will be a challenge and that i am petrified ( Read more... )

do you ever just feel like you've managed to grow up? in just the past few days i suddenly feel like im a real person, not saying that i wasnt real prior to this, but today, today i feel it ( Read more... )

i cant sleep. i just keep thinking about things that you said to me. things that you didnt say to me... and how do i cope with that? with overanalyzing everything. your words. your tone. your smile. your lack of one at some points. your touch. ... your everything. and i cant just stop. i cant just turn it off ( Read more... )

decisions are seriously the hardest thing in the world for me. and i can make the little day-to-day ones without a problem, but i usually dont. why should i bother myself with those when i could be making the "real" decisions? but the thing is, those big, scary, real decisions are just as difficult to make.  to stay, or not to stay, that is the ( Read more... )

i just... i just can't do this alone.

not right now.

"and for a moment, she isn't scared...."

that's what i want.

i cant sleep ( Read more... )