good things happen when i stop thinking about them

sometimes even just for a moment

i have a lot of examples of that recently

so... why can't i just stop thinking about them?

especially from chemistry... especially when i suck at it... even if it's remedial chemistry ( Read more... )

it was a long year ( Read more... )

I feel really good right now. I really do. I think the real reason I haven't gone to bed yet is because I feel good and I want to hold onto that.

Today was really great. I spent a lot of time having random, fun, conversations with random, fun people, mostly my fellow musicians. I was "busy" most of the day, but not too overwelmingly crazy-busy... ( Read more... )

this probably sounds ridiculous ( Read more... )

this is the first time i've left one of these conversations without even a glimmer of hope.

i guess that's kind of a good thing.

but it doesn't feel good.

not good at all.

i need a hug.
so desperately.
but i have no one to hug.
there's no sympathy.

yay for liz ( Read more... )

i am a horrible person
and i can smell disaster
i don't want to fuck up
and end up with people hating me
or me hating them
or hating myself [more than i already do]
i'm not ready for this
and i'm not sure what i can do

if only i could just disappear...

in every heart, there is a room ( Read more... )

i was thinking back to a conversation i had with brian last week ( Read more... )