i now have two cows that sit atop my loveseat and make me smile ( Read more... )

i just wanted to update before i pass out ( Read more... )

you know something is just not right when you can listen to stravinsky's the rite of spring without being overcome by the need to destroy or fuck things ( Read more... )

i really just want to curl up in a ball and cry. i don't know what else to do.

i really wish we could just have a cryfest. i'm so sick of crying alone. i want a shoulder to cry on. someone who cares. and i want to be that shoulder for someone else. do we really have to do this alone???

brittney, i miss you.

this probably sounds ridiculous ( Read more... )

i should probably either be in front of a piano or in bed, but i'm not ( Read more... )

why is it that when i'm emotionally distressed i physically abuse my body?

call you up in the middle of the night
like a firefly without a light
you were there like a slow torch burning
i was a key that could use a little turning

so tired that i couldn't even sleep
so many secrets i couldn't keep
promised myself i wouldn't weep
one more promise i couldn't keep

it seems no one can help me now
i'm in too deep
there's no way ( Read more... )

i didn't like today
for many reasons

i think i'm going to go cry myself to sleep
and then get up far too damn early in the morning
that's ok... i'll probably have plenty of time alone tomorrow to cry myself to sleep once again...

i pretty much just feel like vomiting

i'm not okay, so i'm not going to pretend to be. i wouldn't expect to be either. but i am calm and able to think clearly, and that is a huge improvement. i have decided i need help with some things. i tried to call the counciling center this morning, only to learn that they have changed their phone number since it was last posted on the website ( Read more... )