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How is it that I am capable of such great compassion for others, yet when it comes to myself, I have almost complete apathy? Whatever happened to that old proverb "A man cannot love others if he does not first love himself," or however it goes? Shouldn't I care what happens to me at least a little bit? Shouldn't I care where my life is headed? ( Read more... )

A rare kind of pain has been visited upon me this evening. A kind of pain that I have experienced but once before, and not near as severely. The kind of pain that hits your soul, but is so strong that your flesh actually feels it. But I cannot say that it is not good that it happened, for I have learned from it, and grown as a person. I learned ( Read more... )

I feel like I should probably make more use of this space, but I am unsure as to how to go about it. There's no news to report. Rarely ever is. Plus, I don't feel like I have the right to angst (not that I often let that stop me) because I have not really taken all the action I can to change my current situation. Or, much of any action at all, ( Read more... )

Life, man. Just... life. It's really scary. It's like driving around in Baltimore. You make a turn that should tecnically send you in the right direction, and it might just as easily take you to the ghetto instead. Not that I know what direction is the right one, anyway... I need a road map, or OnStar, or GPS or something. Or better yet, why ( Read more... )

I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. My body seems to tire out well before my mind does, so whenever I feel like sleeping, I end up spending an hour or two (or three) lying in bed thinking about all the crap that's stressing me out in my life. That's a lot of fun. It's even more fun in situations like today when I'm under the ( Read more... )

I am so full of hatred for KoL right now. Hardcore ascension sucks ass. It was cool at first, but almost every single day has been a bitter reminder of my horrifyingly craptacular luck with drop rates. I ascended under a moxie sign, so I have access to the (allegedly) incredibly awesome Gnomish Gnomads camp, which is a... well, a camp full of ( Read more... )

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I seem to be hardwired for depression. No matter what's going on in my life, I always find some way to worry myself into making it worse. What's up with that ( Read more... )

Well, that's all I need. After a two-week absence due to the Texas trip, I went back to my Weight Watchers meeting tonight, only to discover that during the course of three weeks of dieting, I somehow managed to gain eight motherfucking pounds. Holy fucking Christ, how the Hell does that even happen? I didn't let myself go that bad in Texas, and ( Read more... )