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[brainwalker]

I feel like I should probably make more use of this space, but I am unsure as to how to go about it. There's no news to report. Rarely ever is. Plus, I don't feel like I have the right to angst (not that I often let that stop me) because I have not really taken all the action I can to change my current situation. Or, much of any action at all, really. I don't like it when people bitch about their life and don't do anything to change it, so when I do that, it becomes yet another thing for me to hate about myself. So, I don't want to do that. But then, what is left to talk about?

I continue to be a great enigma to those close to me, myself included. I tend to think I'm a fairly good judge of character and that I can usually be pretty well in-touch with what people are feeling. Yet I am so out-of-touch with reality that I don't even really know myself. I have formulated a number of possible plans and strategies to dig myself out of this crazy rut I'm in, but none of them get very far. I seem to be inable of getting excited or motivated about much of anything, including the hobbies that I use to fill my time these days, and I find that incredibly worrisome.

... wait, I'm worried about myself for once? Not my "future" or my usefulness to others? Maybe there is actually news to report after all, then.