Only a matter of time...
*sigh*
I seem to be slipping back into depression again. I don't know if I'm quite there yet, but I'm certainly not happy. I don't feel like my life is really going anywhere... mostly because, right now, it isn't. I need to stop talking about things I need to do and actually start doing them. If I can't find a job, which it's looking like I might not be able to, then I'll have to bite the bullet and go back to school and get some more education to make up for my lack of experience, and pray to God that someone might actually hire me after that. But before I make that kind of decision, I need to figure out what the Hell I even want to do with my career. Plus I have to figure out how all this crap fits in with my desire to be with Alexis, who is just about the only positive direction my life has taken since I graduated a year ago. Jesus Christ, it's hard to believe it's been an entire fucking year and I'm still not doing anything related to my degree. What the fuck? Is it really that bad in this area, or am I just that goddamned lazy?
I'm painfully bored, and I am surrounded by means to entertain myself that hold absolutely no interest for me whatsoever. Not like anything else I've been doing today up 'till now has been terribly interesting, either. That's a sure sign that I'm not in a good mood. I need a job. Not just for financial reasons, I need one so I don't go completely insane.
I seem to be slipping back into depression again. I don't know if I'm quite there yet, but I'm certainly not happy. I don't feel like my life is really going anywhere... mostly because, right now, it isn't. I need to stop talking about things I need to do and actually start doing them. If I can't find a job, which it's looking like I might not be able to, then I'll have to bite the bullet and go back to school and get some more education to make up for my lack of experience, and pray to God that someone might actually hire me after that. But before I make that kind of decision, I need to figure out what the Hell I even want to do with my career. Plus I have to figure out how all this crap fits in with my desire to be with Alexis, who is just about the only positive direction my life has taken since I graduated a year ago. Jesus Christ, it's hard to believe it's been an entire fucking year and I'm still not doing anything related to my degree. What the fuck? Is it really that bad in this area, or am I just that goddamned lazy?
I'm painfully bored, and I am surrounded by means to entertain myself that hold absolutely no interest for me whatsoever. Not like anything else I've been doing today up 'till now has been terribly interesting, either. That's a sure sign that I'm not in a good mood. I need a job. Not just for financial reasons, I need one so I don't go completely insane.