I'm 30. I'm 30 and all of my friends have families, are married, or have a career. I feel like my life is over, like i'm worthless to society because i didn't do what everyone else did. At least, this is my theory as to why i've been extremely anxious the last week or so. I've had every support string clipped, well at least the financial ones. Due ( Read more... )

I've been looking for work. It doesn't seem to do much good, but i still do it. I'm not really sure what to do at this point, I was told by a supervisor [i'm assuming the title] that she'd give me a call and then i get an email saying they don't want me. She gave me her card, told me to call by weds. I'm so frustrated and the anticipation for the ( Read more... )

I wish i lived the way my posts do, teleporting through time. I've been wanting to write for so long and i'm not sure what to say anymore. There's so much to say, always but i just feel like i ramble ( Read more... )

Why Facebook, you've changed ( Read more... )

I'm not excited to work, but i'm glad that i still can. I had some kind of meltdown at work and broke company property. it was ah-mazing. it was actually really lame and i was in fear of my job for the rest of the day ( Read more... )

I've been really irritable all freakin day. this morning i woke up in a cold sweat ... one of my first thoughts was that i have to work tomorrow. at this job that i don't feel comfortable/confident doing. my stomach started aching and then i remembered 3 or 4 pretty important dates are coming up. nothing i was doing made me feel any better ... ( Read more... )

I got the job. I waited all week and was going to call them today b/c SUPPOSEDLY i'm starting monday. And they called me first. yay!! I do start monday, so i'm really excited about it. And since i got my unemployment early I can look for jeans tomorrow. Or today ... but idk. It's kind of annoying that i won't leave the house for most reasons. ( Read more... )

So i should be hearing back about another job soon, i'd like it to work out. I've been on myspace and facebook a lot ... i kind of miss just having a lj. heh. or one of the other accounts i held at one point ( Read more... )

Ever since i stopped living on the internet, about 4-5 years ago, the technology these days just gets on my nerves. I feel like things are advancing so quickly that i never get a real hold on what the fuck i'm doing. I used to be so awesome at HTML and playing around graphically (as in photoshop or animation shop). and now i need to search for some ( Read more... )

so. i haven't had a job in a week. its nice not having to be anywhere at a specific time, but i can already feel it wearing at me. not to mention that i've been sick for the last few days. lets see .... shawns car started leaking out gallons of water. it was a broken hose, which his uncle fixed about 3 days later. during which he broke the heating ( Read more... )