Lazy Days
I'm not excited to work, but i'm glad that i still can. I had some kind of meltdown at work and broke company property. it was ah-mazing. it was actually really lame and i was in fear of my job for the rest of the day.
been spending butt loads of time with Alandra. She's awesome. and we have two Ex's in common. Outrageous. we actually have a lot more in common, we're very similar but apparently, i'm 'from the streets.' lol. And this kid Chase is also amazing. I'm starting to really love all of my work friends. I didn't realize how much i would really miss them until i thought i wouldn't see them again. which is cheesy and lame. lol. but apparently they feel the same way, a lot of people let me know how relieved they are that i wasn't fired. some say they're would've been a protest, other's that it just would've been fucking lame. i love the people there, i mostly hate there.
time to get shit together for tomorrow. maybe i'll make egg salad sandwiches for lunch. I really wish they would get a building for us already, i fucking miss the email team. i just wish these damn kids would control their drama and that everyone else would ignore it.
so ... breakdown for now: work is okay. i hate fusion, but kinda love zynga. i'm broke and need to make a budget for my life already. i'm watching movies til i pass out and i've really only got another hour or so to go. as for the rest of my life, i'm kind of ignoring it. i miss marc. dana still hasn't called. i don't even know if she's alive. this month has mostly sucked and why does no one realize how much he meant to me and stop fucking talking about him in front of me? yes, it's been a year. in fact it's probably just been a year since he got together with his current 'love.' but that doesn't change how i feel at all, which is why i'm ignoring my life. but really, things are good. they can only improve and i need to save and work to make it happen. so .. here's me trying to try.
been spending butt loads of time with Alandra. She's awesome. and we have two Ex's in common. Outrageous. we actually have a lot more in common, we're very similar but apparently, i'm 'from the streets.' lol. And this kid Chase is also amazing. I'm starting to really love all of my work friends. I didn't realize how much i would really miss them until i thought i wouldn't see them again. which is cheesy and lame. lol. but apparently they feel the same way, a lot of people let me know how relieved they are that i wasn't fired. some say they're would've been a protest, other's that it just would've been fucking lame. i love the people there, i mostly hate there.
time to get shit together for tomorrow. maybe i'll make egg salad sandwiches for lunch. I really wish they would get a building for us already, i fucking miss the email team. i just wish these damn kids would control their drama and that everyone else would ignore it.
so ... breakdown for now: work is okay. i hate fusion, but kinda love zynga. i'm broke and need to make a budget for my life already. i'm watching movies til i pass out and i've really only got another hour or so to go. as for the rest of my life, i'm kind of ignoring it. i miss marc. dana still hasn't called. i don't even know if she's alive. this month has mostly sucked and why does no one realize how much he meant to me and stop fucking talking about him in front of me? yes, it's been a year. in fact it's probably just been a year since he got together with his current 'love.' but that doesn't change how i feel at all, which is why i'm ignoring my life. but really, things are good. they can only improve and i need to save and work to make it happen. so .. here's me trying to try.