Bones Fanfic: Show Me What I'm Looking For (27/?)
Title: Show Me What I’m Looking For
Author: biba79
Disclaimer: Characters aren’t mine, they belong to Hart Hanson.
Pairings/Characters: Booth/Brennan
Rating: T
Spoilers: None
Summary: When Brennan fears she may be incapable of truly making love, she asks Booth for help only he can provide. What will his answer be? Season Six. Booth/Brennan.
Word Count: 2,051
Previous Chapters: One - Two - Three - Four - Five - Six - Seven - Eight - Nine - Ten - Eleven - Twelve - Thirteen - Fourteen - Fifteen - Sixteen - Seventeen - Eighteen - Nineteen - Twenty - Twenty-One - Twenty-Two - Twenty-Three - Twenty-Four - Twenty-Five - Twenty-Six
A/N: I always start with my author’s note with thanks, but really. You guys are amazing.
I don’t know how many times I have thanks JSQ for her amazing beta work. She just got back all chapters, so that means that I can update this faster, if I can of course. Really, thanks to her, I’m updating tonight. She’s incredible. Thanks Jen!
Song ‘Beautiful Day’ by U2.
It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you
Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case
What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day
Chapter 27
Cam came in early and found Booth hard at work talking to the squints. He walked down the platform and accompanied Cam to her office.
“Hey Booth, this is the first time you’ve been in here this early in months - what’s the matter, you and Brennan fighting?”
“What? No.” He whispered looking around.
“So, everything is okay?”
“Yeah, better than okay.”
“Good.” A satisfied smile greeted him. She had witnessed the way Victoria was slithering around the lab, and she hadn’t liked it one bit.
“Cam, it’s been three months.”
“Oh, for what?” She pretended to be ignorant.
“For us.”
“No, it’s been about fifteen years.”
“Not us, us, Bones and me.”
“But Booth it’s just temporary. You really shouldn’t be keeping track of something so meaningless!” She taunted him.
“Camille!”
“Seeley!”
“Hey, don’t get started. You don’t need to; I’m not going to argue, because whatever you say, you would be right.” He put up his hands in surrender. “You win, but I win too,” he said smiling. “I’m going to tell her.”
“Excuse me? What was that?” Cam asked pretending to be confused.
“Behave.” Booth knew that would never happen.
“Exactly what are you going to tell her?” Cam asked wanting confirmation.
“I’m going to admit the truth...”
“And that is?”
“To her, Cam. Not to you.”
“I think maybe you should practice, just to make sure. Communicating, especially about personal stuff, isn’t your strong suit. You better test it out on me first, so I can tell you if you sound too much like an agent and not enough like a prospective husband.”
Cam used the fast talking technique that always worked, and it caught him off guard. He was usually too busy trying to figure out what she said to evade the answer.
“Husband? Isn’t it a little...” How did she read his mind all the time? He gave her a vintage Seeley Booth frown. “Oh, what’s the use...” he gave up, “I’m going to tell her... I love her.”
Cam put her hand over her heart in disbelief, “Did I hear you right?”
“Yeah, you heard me right,” he laughed a little. “In fact the only thing that’s stopped me is all of this...” His hand swept to indicate the lab, “We get interrupted or something happens... I was about to tell her last night, but Angela called. I decided to take her away to where... to John and Olivia’s... so we can talk privately with no interruptions.”
“Oh, Booth. Thank God.” Tears formed in Cam’s eyes. She hugged him tightly, the affection was returned in a huge bear hug.
“Well, I hope she...”
“Oh, she would be crazy not to...”
“I’m the one who would be crazy not to, Cam. I’ve never felt like this ever. It’s so ironic; you know that we have this agreement about it being a strictly physical thing; that’s the least of what it is...”
Cam sat quietly, hoping he would elaborate.
“It’s so much more... I can’t quite put it into words. If she and I never made love again, it would be okay. The way I feel about her goes so far beyond the physical. I want to be with her in every way. When we are together, just sitting around, talking, or holding hands, it’s enough to look into those eyes.”
The image of her was imbedded in his heart and in his mind. Thinking of her brought colorful, splashes
of happiness into his world. The world before her had been only black and white with far too much grey in between.
Cam’s tears were shining unshed. She had never seen or heard Booth speak of anyone this way, not even about Rebecca or Hannah.
“She understands me, she sees me. There is this beauty, a grace in her. I’ve never experienced with anyone... except...” His voice trailed off. “She’s good for me, she makes it simple. I like that the most about her... and even when we argue, and we do...”
Cam nodded, biting her lip to keep from making a sarcastic remark.
“I’m not afraid. I know we will work it out... I feel like I’ve come home, and I never want to leave again.”
Cam’s smile deepened as he spoke, and she realized he had forgotten she was there. She waited as he returned to earth.
He focused back on Cam again, a little amazed he had said so much. “As for how I will tell her, I have no idea what I will be saying, I only know I’m ready to say it.”
Cam was wiping at the tears and laughing through them a little. “What do you mean you don’t know what to say? You just said it.”
He smiled. “I’m a little nervous, what if she...”
“She will, Booth.” Cam assured him.
He laughed. He had his own cheering section; what would he do without Cam?
“Booth, this is amazing. I mean, I didn’t know you had it in you, I... I did but I wasn’t sure you would ever let it out.” She hurried to correct herself. “This is so great.” She hugged him and kissed him soundly on the cheek. “There’s hope for you after all!”
X-X-X-X-X-X
A few days later Brennan was just getting in her car as her cell phone rang; it was late afternoon and she was heading home.
“Brennan.” She said absently, her mind still unwinding from her case.
“Hi...Temperance... Ohhh just a minute...” Olivia’s voice was faint. “Ahhh... Ok...I’m back.” She said after a minute.
“Olivia? Are you okay? What’s... are you okay?” Brennan’s voice rose with concern.
“Yeah... it’s nothing...” Her teasing voice relaxed Brennan’s hold on the phone. “Just a little pain every five minutes or so...”
“Oh My... you’re in labor!”
“Yeah, how did you guess?” She laughed calmly.
“Oh, Olivia. My God.” Brennan said again. “Are you alone, do you need.... where is John? What can I do? Can I call someone or the hospital or...”
“Temperance, I’m with John, we are on our way to the hospital now, although he’s acting pretty much the way you are, so I doubt he will be much help...”
“I can’t believe it... it’s early...” She said it suddenly without thinking. “I mean...”
“I know, it has me a little nervous too.”
“Only three weeks though, Olivia... it’s okay from what I know, which isn’t...” Shut up Brennan. She told herself. “It’s going to be fine... just try to have...”
“Aahhhh... sorry...”
“Breathe... Breathe...” Brennan instructed. She had no clue what else to say.
“That’s really great advice, Temperance.” Olivia couldn’t resist teasing.
“Sorry. I feel so helpless here... I don’t know what to say, except I will be here thinking of all of you.”
“Thanks Temperance, I thought you would want to know...”
“I do... I will wait.” She felt so foolish, what else could she do? Lamaze obviously wasn’t her calling. “I want to say something but I can’t think at all right now...” Brennan had trouble coming up with anything to say, she was surprised how speechless she had become.
“Me either.” Olivia wasn’t telling the truth, doubts and fears were trespassing through her head so fast, she felt consumed by them. She hadn’t counted on the painful memories clouding this moment of profound joy.
Something in the tone of Olivia’s voice brought this home to Brennan. “Olivia it will be okay this time. I know it will.”
“Temperance, I feel like a hypocrite...” Olivia dropped the act.
“You are not, you are a mom and moms worry all the time.”
“Not yet, I’m not...”
“You will be in a few hours... you will be holding that beautiful baby. I know it, and you know it too,” she reminded her friend who had taught her so much. Brennan said it with a conviction she didn’t know she had. “Call me as soon as...”
“We will... we are at the hospital now...”
“Okay.... I will be waiting.”
“I’m fine Temperance, don’t worry.” She tried to be the strong one as always. “This baby is really coming... I...” Her voice was tearful.
“I know... I can’t wait...”
“Ahhhh, okay. We will talk later. Bye.”
“Bye...” Brennan said to the empty line. She wished she were there with her. Waiting was going to seem like forever.
Her thoughts of Olivia flashed back to their first meeting. Brennan had been so angry with Booth, but the minute she looked into Olivia’s eyes, those green emeralds that see into the heart of things so wisely.
She remembered how comforted she felt, how easily they had spoken as if they had been friends forever.
She remembered the pain on Olivia’s face as she told her about the night they lost little Andrew. Her eyes teared up as she tried to imagine the anguish of those moments. Never getting to hold him or nurse him, watching his fragile life end.
She smiled thinking of the miracle about to enter Olivia’s life. She couldn’t help wondering if she would ever have the same experience in her own life.
She could not bring herself to start her car; her hands were a little shaky, and her mind was filled with anxious wishes for her friends.
X-X-X-X-X-X
It was a few minutes later at the Hoover. Booth was again in a conference room with the infamous Agent King going over evidence on the case.
His cell phone rang interrupting the last details of their meeting.
“Booth.”
“She’s having my baby.” Was sung in one of the most off-key sounds Booth had ever heard.
“Angela?” He asked, holding one ear shut.
“She’s having my baby.” John’s excited voice came over loud and clear.
“Oh My God. John, it’s you.” Booth had forgotten his meeting completely. “Olivia’s having the baby? How?”
“Booth, buddy... maybe we should get you into a biology class.”
“I mean, is she okay? Is everything okay? It’s early... is she okay?”
“She’s just getting into her room here at the hospital. Everything seems good. My God, Booth this is
it.” John’s jovial mask fell as he unveiled his true fears. “It’s happening.”
“John,” Booth’s voice was gentle. “It will be alright. Don’t worry. I will be praying for all three of you. It’s going to be fine. In a little while you will be passing out cigars.”
“Sorry, Booth, but only cigars made out of chocolate. Olivia insisted we couldn’t pass out carcinogens to our dearest friends.”
“Sounds like Liv.” Booth laughed.
“Booth...”
“I wish I could be there, but work, you know.”
“It’s okay, I will call you as soon as the baby arrives...”
“Yes, you better do that. I will be waiting.”
“I’m going to be a Dad!”
Booth smiled happily, knowing how much this meant to his friends. Booth hoped to have a baby with Brennan one day. One day was feeling much closer lately. It made this moment so much sweeter.
“Yeah, call the minute...”
“You know, I will.”
“Give Liv my love.”
“Ok, they say I can go back in now, I gotta go.”
“Remember to breathe...” Booth knew that was important.
John laughed “I don’t think I’m likely to forget that. Okay, Booth, I will call you soon...”
A/N: I thought you guys would appreciate a little bit of fluff, so there you have it. Let me know what you guys think.