Bones Fanfic: Show Me What I'm Looking For (10?)
Title: Show Me What I’m Looking For
Author: biba79
Disclaimer: Characters aren’t mine, they belong to Hart Hanson.
Pairings/Characters: Booth/Brennan
Rating: T
Spoilers: None
Summary: When Brennan fears she may be incapable of truly making love, she asks Booth for help only he can provide. What will his answer be? Season Six. Booth/Brennan.
Word Count: 2,927
Previous Chapters: One - Two - Three - Four - Five - Six - Seven - Eight - Nine
A/N: It was good to see everyone’s reaction to the last chapter, I can’t wait to see what you guys think of this one. Probably not what you are expecting, but I really do hope you guys like it!
Song “Touch My Body” by Mariah Carey
Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.
I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body
Chapter 10
Olivia and John’s doorbell rang.
“John, honey can you get it? I’ve got flour all over my hands.”
“Sure.” He said as he went by her, kissed her on her temple and then opened the door.
“Booth, what’s wrong?”
“She heard me telling you everything.” Booth was devastated.
Olivia stood in the hallway unseen by the two men listening.
“She’s upset?”
“Oh, yeah…”
“Did you explain… things to her?”
“She wouldn’t listen… I came to get the car, she’s going back…” Booth said, his face looked like a little boy who just been severely disappointed. “She hates me… she won’t even let me drive her.”
“I’m sure she’ll calm down once she gets a chance to cool off.”
“I don’t think so, John… I think it’s over before we even gave it a chance. She said she would never
trust me again. I can’t believe how stupid I was to talk like that on the phone… my God, it sounded…”
“Booth… you have to tell her.”
“I can’t… I thought I might tonight… but I can’t…” He smiled sadly. “It just isn’t meant to be, it was never meant to be.” He was doing everything he could to keep the emotions at bay.
“Come in and sit down… before you go back you need to regroup a bit.”
Olivia turned around and went back to the kitchen.
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Brennan was throwing her stuff carelessly back into the suitcases. Her head ached from crying her eyes out, everything else was numb too.
“Wow, you’re going to have to iron everything when you get home after packing like that,” Olivia said from the doorway.
“I don’t mean to be rude Olivia, but I really need to get this done, and I’m not good company right now.”
“I thought you might need someone to talk to.”
“I take it Booth made it up to the house - did he tell you his little plans for the weekend got spoiled?”
“Booth didn’t tell me anything; he doesn’t tell a lot to anyone.”
“Oh really? Well, that’s probably true if it’s about himself, but give him some good juicy story about someone else, and he will open his mouth.”
“Temperance, I did see Booth tonight, but he didn’t see me. He’s really upset. I don’t think you realize what it meant to him to have you here.”
“I can’t afford to find out what it means… hell I already know. Just another woman to give him her trust, let him fool her by dazzling her with the scenery, and then get her into bed. He and John can have a good laugh about it later. I can’t be that.”
“Another woman?”
“Olivia, I know, he’s been here with all kinds of woman....I wonder if they were all charity cases like me. The Great Seeley Booth can have his choice. Why would he want anything to do with someone as screwed up as me? I’m nothing but a good joke for him.”
“Temperance, where did you get the idea he had all kinds of women here?”
“Come on Olivia, you don’t have to try to cover up for him… what were they like?” She was unable to stop herself from asking, the thought of him doing the same things with other women had been gnawing at her.
“I don’t know, Temperance; he’s never brought anyone here before, ever.”
“What?” This news astonished her.
“I swear. He has never brought anyone else here. He has never wanted to bring anyone here until now. When he told John he was bringing you, I knew you could be… he doesn’t share himself with everyone. You must know that.”
“You’re telling me he never even brought Rebecca here, or Hannah? I highly doubt that.”
“No, not even Rebecca or Hannah. You are the first woman he has ever brought here. The only person he brings here often is Parker, but no one else.”
Brennan sounded surprised by that information.
“I asked him one time about why he never brings anyone - do you know what he said?”
Brennan wanted to hear in spite of her anger, she needed to know. “I take it you are going to tell me anyway.”
“He said he couldn’t bring just anyone here… that sharing this with someone would be like revealing a part of his soul. He said he hadn’t found anyone he trusted enough.”
“He really said that?” Brennan spoke in almost a whisper.
“He really did,” Olivia said honestly.
“Oh, Olivia, but he told John things that I told him in confidence.”
“Temperance, I know you don’t know us very well yet,” Olivia said sitting beside her on the bed, caressing her stomach. “John is such a wonderful man, he would never divulge anything Booth tells him; what those two talk about remains between them. I don’t even know, John would never tell me. Trust me.”
“Olivia, you don’t know my past.”
“I don’t need to know, it doesn’t matter. Everyone has a past, no one here would judge you or hold it against you or make fun of you, least of all John. Temperance, I don’t know everything going on with you and Booth, but I sense that you are afraid of this somehow and maybe it’s that Booth may not feel as deeply as you do, or maybe it’s something else. I also saw how much you wanted to be with him. Am I way off here?”
Brennan looked at Olivia, her soothing voice and calm presence helped her see the complete picture.
“I am afraid. What if I can’t, and I disappoint him? What if after all it is only a weekend? I’m not sure I could handle that either. I’m going back tonight.”
“So you’ll never know?”
“Know what?”
“What it’s like to be loved by him, and how it feels to show him you love him too.”
“We weren’t going to make love Olivia. We were here to have sex, that’s a big difference.”
“I know you said that, but I think you’re both fooling yourselves.”
“I don’t know what to do,” Brennan said near tears again. She couldn’t believe she was opening up to a complete stranger.
“You have to decide Temperance, do you run away hiding behind your fears, or do you open up your arms and embrace this chance?”
“What if he doesn’t want to anymore after all the things that we said?”
“It’s up to you to make sure he does want to.”
Brennan nodded, smiling for the first time in hours.
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Booth entered the stone house; he was calmer, his decision was made. He knew he would have a time convincing her to let him drive her home, but he was determined she would not go by herself. John convinced him all was not lost. He had told him that regaining her trust might take some time, but Booth was willing to wait as long as it took. The time he had spent here with her so far had more than convinced him this was right for both of them.
As he reached the bedroom door, he noticed a strange light coming from the inside of the room, like a bulb flickering, ready to burn out. Booth took a deep breath, ready to face the next hurdle. He pushed open the door.
Candles were lit at various places around the room; two crystal vases full of wild flowers adorned the bedside tables. Very soft music was emanating from the CD player on the shelf by the mantle; the fireplace was crackling with flames.
Booth looked around the room, thinking he must have come into the wrong house. The bathroom door opened and the vision that stood before him left this FBI Agent, who was never at a loss for words, speechless. His body was frozen at the spot; he was unable to tear his eyes away from her. Here they were in one of the most beautiful places he had ever been, and it all paled in comparison to this radiant woman before him.
Brennan’s hair was up loosely, soft tendrils touching the nape of her neck. Her face was lightly made up, her eyes were luminous jewels of blue in the candle light. The beautiful red lingerie revealed the soft curves of her body.
Brennan felt the goose bumps radiate over her body as she watched for his reaction. She held her breath, hoping for some sign that he was happy to have found her waiting for him like this.
Booth was afraid he was going to wake up and find this was all a dream. He knew he had to say something to make sure it was real. “I… uh… you…” He felt like a tongue tied teenager.
“I changed.” Her eyes never left his.
“I can see that.” He swallowed hard.
“I really… don’t like driving at night.” She said, wishing he would come closer to her. She would walk over to him, but her legs were shaking so much she couldn’t move. This was so out of her comfort zone.
“So you’re staying…”
“Sort of…” She agreed mysteriously.
“Sort of?” He asked her, his mind felt like mush.
“Yes. You see, I was hoping maybe… you’d be willing to take me with you.”
Booth swallowed hard again, questioning her with his penetrating eyes. He walked over to her, she was so gorgeous. How did he get so lucky?
“You still want to go with me?” He was in a tailspin. Things changed between them so fast; maybe he was in a time warp or something. “I thought what happened…”
“Booth, I know, we need to talk about what happened earlier, and I want to, but just not right now, okay?”
“Are you sure, Bones?” Booth asked walking over to her slowly.
She nodded. Her hands were trembling slightly as she reached up shyly to undo the buttons on his shirt. Their eyes said the words neither of them was able to express.
Booth bent his head to kiss her hair as her hands pushed his shirt opened. She ran her fingers softly over his chest.
The CD changed and as if it was perfectly planned, their ‘song’ played softly in the background.
“May I have this dance, Bones?”
Her arm embraced his bare back under his shirt as their hands locked together. They swayed to the music, so close to each other, in the shadows it was as if they were one.
“Booth.”
“Hmm?”
“I’m scared.”
“I know.” He felt her trembling a little in his arms. “Everything’s gonna be okay.” His eyes told her it was true. “I won’t hurt you.”
“I know.”
“You have to trust me, Bones.”
“I do, you know I do.”
He smiled. He swept her gently off her feet, carrying her to the couch; he sat down with her in his lap.
Their kisses were light and feathery at first; they were teasing each other with pecks. Both were smiling and laughing softly as they played a little with each other. As their deep passion for one another took over, they explored each other hungrily. Their mouths were insatiable, tasting and touching each other as if they would never have enough.
Booth lowered his explorations to the plunging neckline of her gown. He kissed the beckoning skin and Brennan moaned softly, her hands pushed his shirt off his shoulders; he quickly dropped it to the floor. Her fingers ran over his bare back softly at first then more intensely as his mouth returned to hers, pressing her down into the plush cushions of the couch.
He looked deeply into her eyes, searching for the sign that she was ready to go further.
“Bones…?”
“I want you, Booth.” She answered, reading his thoughts.
He led her to the bed, holding her hand.
They looked tenderly at each other as he gently removed the straps of her gown off her shoulders and let it fall in a swish to the floor.
“Oh God, you’re so beautiful, Bones.” He told her meaning it in every way.
She smiled believing it for the very first time.
He whispered his next words wanting to calm her fears.
“I want you to tell me, everything you like, and anything you don’t. I need to know, okay?”
She nodded.
He picked her up as if she was made of porcelain, ever so fragile, ever so precious. He laid her on the bed making very sure her head was resting on her favorite pillow.
She felt a momentary sense of panic and a little shyness about revealing herself so completely to him.
She grabbed for the sheet, he shook his head, “You’re perfect, Bones, you don’t have to cover up.” She let go of it, as he bent down over her and kissed her until she relaxed completely in his arms.
Booth shed the rest of his clothes, and Brennan looked at him appreciatively - he was everything she thought he would be and more.
Booth settled at the foot of the bed taking her foot in his hand, kissing each toe.
“Booth, what are you doing?” Brennan asked giggling a little as it tickled.
“Bones, you have beautiful feet.”
“You’re crazy.” she laughed again, happily.
“Yeah, I guess I am.”
He continued up her ankles to her knees, then changed to a different part of her anatomy.
He kissed each of her fingers, her hands, her wrists; at every touch Brennan felt her nerve endings come alive. His mouth was gently teasing as he moved up her arm. He kissed her elbows, knowing it would make her laugh again, which should help her relax more. He sensed a part of her was holding back, still uneasy and afraid. He kissed her right elbow playfully, she moaned in pleasure, Booth looked at her surprised at this discovery, his mouth returned to the elbow this time, his tongue teased it gently, her body involuntarily revealed its pleasure.
“Oh, Booth.” she said sighing in satisfaction.
“You like that?” He asked in surprise.
“Mmm hmm.” He smiled at her closed eyes and the satisfied expression on her sweet face. He continued to make her happy, glad she had two elbows.
She found herself responding to his every touch, her hands moved over him instinctively, wanting to bring him the same pleasure he had brought her. Booth was lost in his feelings for her, he reveled in every new discovery. It had never felt this perfect with anyone before. He loved her with every cell of his being, the intensity of his feelings overwhelmed him. Yet he held himself back, wanting to make certain Brennan was happy and fulfilled first.
For Brennan, there was no one but him. No one else could ever make her feel this happy. Her body and her mind were completely alive and in sync for the very first time. This man, who she loved more than life itself, had made her feel beautiful and desired.
Booth ran his hands up her arms entwining their fingers, pressing them gently against the bed. At last they joined together in a crescendo of love and pleasure that astounded them both. Neither of them had imagined it could be like this, they had found a oneness that far surpassed the physical alone. They united together in heart, mind, and soul.
Afterwards they were wrapped in each other’s arms, Brennan’s head resting on his chest. Brennan was shaken so deeply by a culmination of the euphoria, the shedding of all the inhibitions, the release of all her fears, combined with her deep love of this man. She could not control the myriad of emotions rushing through her. The tears fell on his chest as she cried softly, unable to stop.
“Oh baby…” He caressed her hair holding her tightly against him, “It okay, Bones… I didn’t… please tell me I didn’t?” His voice was worried. She looked up at his beloved face, touching his lips gently to hers.
Tears were glistening on her cheeks as she smiled at him tenderly.
“Booth, no… it was so perfect. I didn’t know it could be like this… not even in my dreams.” Booth knew exactly what she meant, as he kissed her and pulled her closer within the circle of his arms.
They had finally come together after so many false starts, so many doubts and so many fears. Finally united together forever, two souls finding each other through a long and painful journey, two hearts bonded forever in love.
A/N: Finally! But it’s not always as easy as it looks, is it? What did you guys think?