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I'm tired of being alone. Crying alone. Shopping alone. Making plans for my future alone. Watching TV alone. Playing games alone. Making decisions alone. I'm tired of being the person of convenience, being the one that you can get rid of because you don't have time. I'm tired of asking questions and not knowing the answers after a 2 hour ( Read more... ) -
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2.5 years later ... I'm single again. I just ... I'm speechless. I don't know what to say. I'm devastated. This was NOT my choice. I don't know what to do. I feel alienated and alone. He did it over the phone. I didn't even get a hug. I... I ... I... I feel thrown away.... once again. -
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On 4/20/2012 I came down with a fever ... no big deal I thought, I know its approaching the end of the semester but I'll just sleep it off. That whole weekend I found 101-102 degree temperatures. Monday, Went to the Nurse Practitioner on campus. She tested me for mono which was negative and said I had Strep. No test. I started taking ( Read more... ) -
Progress, Weight Issues and career goals.
A few people have posted about it recently and its been on my mind 24/7 since I went back to school this semester... its nearly all I think about.
I'm not ashamed of my weight, I never have been I am however disappointed in how I've let myself get this way. This isn't who I am. I never understood people who don't like telling people their " ( Read more... ) -
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Today was one of the good ones ....
I woke up obscenely early to get to campus for my Dr.'s appointment. No strep, keep doing everything you're doing, you're perfectly healthy and will be fine within a few days. Pffft. Well, that was a huge waste of time :P On the bright side ... I got a great parking spot and found out my BP is a healthy 120/70 :) Went to my classes .... couldn ( Read more... ) -
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Holy Crap. Gym today .... not sure how many hours ... 2? 2.5? 3? ... only burned 930 calories but I walked to and from the gym ~2 miles so really not that big a deal :) But I feel amazing. I need food though desperately. New plan. Whenever I start crying, unless I'm in class the firs thing I'm doing is going to the gym. At least then something ( Read more... ) -
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It just keeps building and building and building. Tonight we got in a screaming match in the parking lot of a local restaurant and left me crying there to go home alone again. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm strong ... but I don't know if I'm this strong. I wish I had someone to tell me what the right thing to do is ( Read more... ) -
It gets harder and harder every day
I know I made this decision. I know I chose to be in this situation. But for the first time in my relationship... I don't feel even remotely important. I'm sitting here ... crying ... again... because there's a wedding next Friday. That I'm being excluded from. Not the wedding of course, but the overnight stay in the hotel with the rest of the ( Read more... )