So I don't really remember my last post but to catch up ... **goes to check ( Read more... )

Since Saturday night, I've only spent one night at home.  Why? We - all three of us - got in a car accident.  Me, the boyfriend, his wife.  Near head on collision.  He was turning, I was going straight, he didn't yield.  I'm freaked the fuck out.  I've contacted my lawyer so I'll be going through that process for the first time.  I have no car.  ( Read more... )

Why? Simple. Baton Rouge does not now nor has it since I got involved in 2005 have a leather scene. Do we have folks that are leather? Very few. Most of my exposure has been to people who visit us ... mostly from Dallas and from going to other events.

Funny thing though. From what I've gathered, from what little I know ... I learned to be leather ( Read more... )

Its 5:00 am.  Trouble typing.  I haz it.  I sit here, drunkish, having had too much alcohol but not having had too much friendship.

Dinner with family.  Early evening feeling awkward.  Flitting around the bar introducing myself to strangers, making fun ... on my own.  I got winked at. someone wanted to take a picture of H and I dancing.  No thank ( Read more... )

And I haven't written one in a very long time. I've had a rough couple of weeks, neigh, couple of months. I know this and Its hard getting out of it. I'm really trying, its just touch when so many facets of my life felt ... broken.

I was gonna write this for Livejournal first but ... it seems, this is my home now. I'll probably crosspost it but that ( Read more... )

Huge FL cut.  Let me know if you wanna be re-added and I'll do so.  Mostly people who have been inactive for eons. 

I got rid of TNG.  I don't mind helping her going forward, in fact ... I'll be disappointed if she doesn't ask for help, but I transferred over the ownership of TNG to someone who is ... at times bitchy ... hey, so am I ... it comes with the job I think :) But female, under 30, not creepy, and cares about the community.  I just couldn't take having ( Read more... )

I feel lost and alone.  Not even the anticipation of DragonCon has me excited.  I'm depressed, I haven't stopped crying since Saturday morning except when I'm asleep.  I don't know how to fix it and I haven't left my apartment in 2 days.  I'm miserable.  This is how I used to feel when I was suicidal.  I'm not.  But I remember the feeling.  This ( Read more... )

I knew it was coming I guess, I just wanted to believe that the management in my office wouldn't get told what to do by management in another office an hour away when they don't *really* know what's going on with us.  I guess I'm still naive ( Read more... )

10 hour days at work, a fair amount of socializing, and the boyfriend's birthday parth is this Saturday at the bar. (Come, btw ( Read more... )