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I'm tired of being alone. Crying alone. Shopping alone. Making plans for my future alone. Watching TV alone. Playing games alone. Making decisions alone. I'm tired of being the person of convenience, being the one that you can get rid of because you don't have time. I'm tired of asking questions and not knowing the answers after a 2 hour long *serious* conversation. I'm tired of feeling left behind always. I want to be the center of your universe. I want to be the last phone call you make at night and the first phone call you make in the morning. I want your devotion. I'm tired of making excuses of why you can't be with me when I visit my parents. I'm tired of them asking questions that I can't answer. I'm tired of not being part of your family anymore.
Things haven't been right since the accident. IN OCTOBER.
Maybe you are right and I deserve more. Maybe this is why you let me go but I don't care. The end result is ... I feel broken.... because I am. I was broken when we started dating, and I'm broken now. I'm not sure why I thought you could change that. I'm not quite sure why I thought that should be your job. It wasn't.
I loved you then, I love you now and I will always love you. But ... I'm angry. I'm angry at how this was handled. I'm angry that it was done over the phone. I'm angry at how I was made to feel over the past six months. Disposable. I'm just angry. Screw you for making me feel this way.
Things haven't been right since the accident. IN OCTOBER.
Maybe you are right and I deserve more. Maybe this is why you let me go but I don't care. The end result is ... I feel broken.... because I am. I was broken when we started dating, and I'm broken now. I'm not sure why I thought you could change that. I'm not quite sure why I thought that should be your job. It wasn't.
I loved you then, I love you now and I will always love you. But ... I'm angry. I'm angry at how this was handled. I'm angry that it was done over the phone. I'm angry at how I was made to feel over the past six months. Disposable. I'm just angry. Screw you for making me feel this way.