First and foremost - divorce sucks. Period. Even when you have always been above melodrama, when you understand that insecurity breeds stupid behavior - that doesn't mean that you won't be that person, feel those things, overreact that way. Depression is real, and makes you someone different entirely. I have spent most of my life as a person who is ( Read more... )

Today the panic is slightly more than I can take. I’m so excruciatingly aware of EVERYTHING. I can feel the artificial light greying my skin. I can feel the inside of my shoes, my toes touching each other, the fabric of my clothes against my body. The sound of my keyboard as I type is deafening, a person pouring coffee in the breakroom drowns out ( Read more... )

so, i'm living alone at our house on Dixon Ave. Dan's coming back to Tampa from a long trip, and for the first time, he isn't coming home to me. i'm better now... with all of it... six months down the road. not saying i'm well. just better than i was ( Read more... )

i am deeply and violently angry.

It was the summer before I went into the 3rd grade, and my friend whose name I can’t recall was at my house. We were covertly jumping on the bed and talking about school. While we were excited about being in the same class for once (at the time the 3rd and 4th grades were combined because our Christian school was so small), we were also very ( Read more... )

Once upon a time, I taught preschool at a Baptist church ( Read more... )

Sinatra attacked the neighbor's cat today. It was cute, really. I've never seen Sinatra so happy, and Dan so horrified ( Read more... )

This week has been hard… Work is slow, but I still have to be here. There are things I could be doing - right now, in fact - but I don’t feel it. I want to go home, I want to work in my yard and make it the beautiful thing I know it can be ( Read more... )

Among the personal deficiencies of which I am most keenly aware, is the fact that, although I am a Cuban-American, I can’t dance.( Read more... )

I am a Pub Girl, not a Club Girl.
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