But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure ( Read more... )

January 2 was the day of our wedding. 3 years later, it was the day Dan left our home for good. today i sit at work feeling like there should be some sort of importance to the day. some significance. yet no cosmic fluctuation has occured to acknowledge our happiness, our loss. the world keeps spinning and so must i.

As a child, I used to rotate my toys. I would shift them, methodically on the shelves, on my bed, wherever their station, so that no one toy or stuffed animal felt inferior to the other. I would talk to them and reassure them of their importance to me being careful to give each one equal attention. Nothing pained me more than thinking that I'd ( Read more... )

Perhaps time is discontinuous. We merely perceive each moment as flowing before the next in a perpetual river of motion, when in actuality each moment is a universe unto itself, eternal and immutable. Every thought a raindrop suspended in an endless painting of that one intense explosion of energy we call a moment, in which sight-sound-touch-being ( Read more... )

I woke up in his bed again. The fan squeaking in rhythmic disapproval. Hot breath against my neck. I’ve memorized the ceiling by now. Its cracks and grooves. I’m late to work. What’s my excuse this time? His father’s shuffling footsteps beyond the door ( Read more... )

i'm giving a lecture in a dream, university classroom setting, the discussion is moving along well, it's a topic i'm passionate about, though the theme escapes me in my waking life. the students are on the verge, at the precipice of understanding but unwilling to take the leap. so i continue to explain, hopping on and over a desk in my excitement ( Read more... )

who woke up one day and decided to convince the world that we should all be good at everything? that we can consume piece-meal experiences until we are a-word-a-day prolific? 8-minute-ab beautiful? or 10-minute-meditations enlightened? 10 minutes to find clarity, calm, and personal peace ( Read more... )

beautiful. absolutely beautiful. the air is crisp, the sky is blue, even from my cubicle i can see the promise of a perfect day. today ( Read more... )

i've begun a self-imposed solitude. it has been a long time coming. work. school. husky. home. this will be my life ( Read more... )

would someone mind stabbing me in the chest 25 times with a lethally sharp object sometime before the holidays hit? please. thanks ( Read more... )