once again two short weeks have drastically changed everything. inevitably, we're a couple, and everyone knows. but its still fairly private, i dont feel i have to show off. its good. oh, and he loves me :) I do seem to have a knack of making them fall very quickly... but i guess the accelarated atmosphere of uni does that to people. ah girlies, im ( Read more... )

so i'm back in that old cycle of getting to know someone, spending a lot of time with them but not being in a relationship. and weirdly, this time, im fine. i'm not nervous, or super excited, im not overly worried about getting hurt because he has already hurt me, and my god did it hurt but i got over it. im just happy, thats all. im not even ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder whether its better to completely encapsulate myself from getting hurt. while im 'not bothered' how things are progressing at the moment, i cant deny i like the guy and i think about him a lot. I dont think i can cope with the fact that he's my age, same education and intelligent, therefore less easy to read/ manipulate. ive kind ( Read more... )

This has been a fairly odd year so far. i kind of feel that im floating somewhere just out of reach and am waiting for something to pull me back to my actual body. so im throwing out all these lifelines and its like...well they catch, or half catch, but theyre not that stable so as soon as i start trying to pull myself in they snap ( Read more... )

I'm getting so fed up of not being able to sleep properly. Its not healthy, and the real crux of the matter is ive got too much on my mind to sleep properly. How on earth do you clear your head? its ridiculous.  and unfortunately i know one of the things on my mind is the usual 'hm im kind of interested so im going to blow it COMPLETELY OUT OF  ( Read more... )

It's very strange actually liking someone. I forgot the sheer nerves it induces. i jump when i see him, when he comes online and when he starts talking to me. I really dont know what it is, or why this is happening with this particular person. normally i wouldnt give someone like him a second thought but dear god his charisma is devastating ( Read more... )

I cant believe christmas has been and gone AGAIN. last years christmas feels way too close for comfort. have we finally got old enough that time no longer stands still?

My life is a mess ( Read more... )

Goodness gracious time is flying. a week on sunday i'll be flying out to Florence for some cultural language learning (why oh why did I not actually try to learn Italian last year?) then back and forth for 21st's and then up we go to leamington for the big move. I'm so fucking excited. sorted out the direct debit today. it's all so real, i need to ( Read more... )

I'm sitting at joseph's being a big lazy face while he moves EVERYTHING in his room, again, researching whether salmon is oily or not. Really, I am riveted. However it's been a lovely day, doing nothing much but enjoying what were doing. I made my spanish omelet, again, but this time with sweet potato and normal potato and OMG it was heavenly. pure ( Read more... )