(no subject)
It's very strange actually liking someone. I forgot the sheer nerves it induces. i jump when i see him, when he comes online and when he starts talking to me. I really dont know what it is, or why this is happening with this particular person. normally i wouldnt give someone like him a second thought but dear god his charisma is devastating.
And the stupid thing is im pretty sure right now that hes not even interested. It's always the way, i actually allow myself to fancy a person, which is very rare these days, (usually the like etc comes after having actually been in bed with them) and its a hopeless case. THIS is why i settle and this is why i dont aim higher.
this is not jim by the way girlies. although he hid in my wardrobe last night and leapt out of me when i came out of the shower. i nearly had a heart attack.
And the stupid thing is im pretty sure right now that hes not even interested. It's always the way, i actually allow myself to fancy a person, which is very rare these days, (usually the like etc comes after having actually been in bed with them) and its a hopeless case. THIS is why i settle and this is why i dont aim higher.
this is not jim by the way girlies. although he hid in my wardrobe last night and leapt out of me when i came out of the shower. i nearly had a heart attack.