It's odd... how by forcing all negative aspects out of your life you can actually live peacefully day-to-day. I forced out, not too long ago, a boy because i liked him, but knew it would never work. He wanted to be friends, because he liked being my friend, but I couldn't deal with it. He didn't want to be forced out, but I shut him out of my life ( Read more... )

I would like to thank the University of Connecticut Gay Community for what you did to me. I tried to be a part of you, but for one reason or another some of the people did not like me. So out of discomfort and the feeling of not being welcomed, I left. And I want to thank you for it ( Read more... )

Yeah.... I TOTALLY need to just keep my mouth shut sometimes because my hole is getting a little too deep and I need to stop digging so I can still be able to climb out of it.

(Anyone wanna send down a step-ladder?)

on another note:

the new Bond movie, Casino Royale, was amazing!

I get lonely a lot. And I get scared that I won't ever find someone and that I'll be alone my entire life. I know this isn't true though but for now it is hard to bear ( Read more... )

My roomate is asleep and there's a booger up my nose and I don't want to blow my nose because I don't want to wake my roomate up. What do I do ( Read more... )

Sitting here... crossing my fingers, hoping beyond all hopes and dreams, that you'll find me or that I'll find you soon ( Read more... )

Yeaaah... scratch that last post. He ditched me to go buy cigs and have sex with his bf in the middle of the day when he and I had plans already. So that's the 2nd time he's done it to me (See a trend? I know I did) so... he and I are done, and I have no regrets in my decision. So don't feel sorry, don't feel sad, because I don't. Because friends ( Read more... )

Well that situation is finally over. thank god

"The lioness finally rests with her cub. All is right in the jungle..."

(no, i'm not dating him, i just like the quote and it just means that everything is back in its place. Pretty sure I got the quote wrong though, it's from the end of Kill Bill 2)

I can't believe it's come to this. After all i've done. All he wanted was for me and his boyfriend to get along. and I TRIED, I tried for him, because he's my friend, and it meant so much to him. So I TRIED to be civil, and I TRIED to get to know him, and i TRIED to be nice and friendly because he's my best friend's boyfriend, and my friend asked ( Read more... )

because i'm a stubborn ass, and i don't want to admit defeat. because i refuse to let go of this one thread of hope that i'm left holding onto. because this thread of hope is all i have left of ever being able to be with you ( Read more... )