For the past couple of weeks I've been posting my stuff on tumblr [areyouscaredofthedark.tumblr.com] but I ended up having ugly discussions with people who read it, so... I decided to come back to my good old livejournal.
Nobody has to read it. It is more a "necessary exorcism" for me, a way to let my feelings out. I might post things that are very ( Read more... )

Dear A.

I would like to say a few things to you about what's been going on.

I don't know what Jason told you about this whole situation, but apparently you don't know everything.
I am too old to make things up. And if you don't know about "Jayne" and the "like 6 visits to the hospital" when he was supposedly dying and the inappropriate comments to me ( Read more... )

Ahh people, yesterday was so great. I mean, the day itself was boring as hell (I watched Toy Story 2 haha), but when I got a text message from Stacey at 5:54pm it got aaaall exciting. She was staying at a friend's house and she texted me her phone number so I could call her. I have no idea why exactly but for some funny reason I can call Australia ( Read more... )

When I went to school this morning, I said: "Sometimes we should just stay in bed. Like today." But at this time I hadn't had the slightest idea how right I was gonna be.
So, today was what I would very much like to call the worst day ever.

In fact, I have to start much earlier than today to explain what really happened.
As you know, I have been on ( Read more... )

Dear God,

Grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change
The courage to change the things we can
And the wisdom to know the difference
Patience for the things that take time
Appreciation for all that we have
And tolerance for those with different struggles
Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways
The ability to feel your love ( Read more... )

We gotta start looking at the hands of the time we’ve been given here
That this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
That every second counts on a clock that’s ticking
Gotta live like we’re dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say
( Read more... )

Wooh, sorry people. I know I haven't talked to you in forever. This entry is completely different than anyone before... because:
Yesterday was one of the best days of my life!

First, I could go and check my result on Cambridge Certificate in Advanced English. And guess what?!

I GOT AN A!!!!!!!

I'm sooo proud of myself! Even my parents said they were ( Read more... )

There are moments when I just don’t know where to put my thoughts. When I’m sad without any particular reason, when I feel lonely, even though there are many people around me, and want to die, even though my life is actually really good.

Right now, it is such a moment.

I love my life. Actually.
There’s actually nothing wrong with it. I’m more or ( Read more... )

I used to write a LOT when I was bored or needed a distraction.
Now, for some reason, I can't write anymore.
I don't have ideas, I can't write properly... it's horrible.

I realized that, right now, I'd rather read than write.
I feel the desire to just lock myself in my room all day and just read, read, read.
But not normal German novels. I want to ( Read more... )

Just had a talk with a friend
I hope he considers himself my friend
From Los Angeles.

I met him the first time when I went to HUMC
On that Wednesday I went to Mighty Love.
And we talked for a while.

I have him on Facebook now
And sometimes we write.
We talk about random things.
A few weeks ago we talked about God
and Faith
and the Church.
And he helped me ( Read more... )