Today I have just been really happy to be alive. I spent my weekend in Albany again, which was great. I didn't get there until late Friday night because there was so much going on in my town before I left, so I didn't get to spend any time with my boy. I felt really bad too, because he had taken off work to spend time with me before he went into ( Read more... )

I haven't been here in so long I don't know where to start really. Typing out an entry is kind of a pain in the ass now since I've burned so many keys on my keyboard that I have to press down really hard on certain keys and it's just annoying to use my laptop now ( Read more... )

Super quick update before work ( Read more... )

I am absolutely excusing the horrible shitty mood I'm in right now on the fact that I'm female and my hormones are all weird because I just started bleeding today. And I didn't sleep last night, that probably has something to do with it too ( Read more... )

Today has just been...whatever ( Read more... )

So I finally got a job. I work at Target as a part of the flow team, which is basically stocking. I used to see 6am everyday during the summer because that's when I went to sleep, now I have to wake up and be at work either at 6 or 7, plus it's a 25 minute drive ( Read more... )

Last night I did end up going to the show I wanted to see. I ended up going by myself, but had SUCH an awesome time! I really needed to hear some Grateful Dead and dance my face off, and mission accomplished. I made a couple new friends too, I'm really glad I got to meet some good people ( Read more... )

so i went on the shitty guy diet this week and finallyyyy broke into the 160s. the only good thing that comes out of guy problems in my life is that i lose between 5 and 10 pounds within a week or so of them happening. that is what happens when you eat apples and saltine crackers for a week because your appetite is gone when someone hints that you ( Read more... )

Tonight I purged for the first time in years. I did so good all day, I didn't eat anything except a couple handfuls of pretzel nuggets. Then I went to my mom's SO HUNGRY at 11, and ate so much food. Pasta w/beans, apple bread, a bagel, cheese, and a piece of apple pie. Came back to my dad's around 12 and threw up as much as I could. I just wanna be ( Read more... )

WooOooOo Halloween, the first of many ED-unfriendly holidays of the coming months.....seriously fuck candy, I'm so happy everyone in my family is older and my dad is like "fuck the kids no candy for anyone", so there's no bullshit in either of my parent's houses ( Read more... )