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so i went on the shitty guy diet this week and finallyyyy broke into the 160s. the only good thing that comes out of guy problems in my life is that i lose between 5 and 10 pounds within a week or so of them happening. that is what happens when you eat apples and saltine crackers for a week because your appetite is gone when someone hints that you are not good enough as a person. the easiest thing for me to tackle is how i look on the outside, because if i'm up to society's standard on what looks good, maybe everyone will forget to look deep enough at the things that are actually wrong.
i am like 5 or 6 days clean off dope, hooray
i haven't smoked any pot since nov. 2nd. so i can almost pass a drug test on my own!
i passed my first drug test on tuesday! i had to sub someone else's pee cuz i really needed this job, but it worked! even tho that shit was not even 90 degrees when i submitted it. i didn't think that i would get tested to work a seasonal position for a retail store in the mall but whatever. i passed. i start working tomorrow! like actual, clock-in, taxable, work. i have a shitty shift and a shitty job, but i don't even care at this point. it will just motivate me to find a new job! and because i have to be there soo early there will always be parking at the mall! and i will get a good workout lifting boxes and stuff for 4hrs a day.
uhmmm so yeah. today is my best friend's birthday. there's a show i really want to go to tonight, even if i go by myself. i need some grateful dead music in my life soo bad. so far today i ate an apple, and then a bowl of life with a banana in it and i felt like the fattest piece of shit in the world. hopefully that's it for today though. i'm going to take a nap right now and then go into work if my friend doesn't hit me up by like noon or one.
much love xoxoxo
i am like 5 or 6 days clean off dope, hooray
i haven't smoked any pot since nov. 2nd. so i can almost pass a drug test on my own!
i passed my first drug test on tuesday! i had to sub someone else's pee cuz i really needed this job, but it worked! even tho that shit was not even 90 degrees when i submitted it. i didn't think that i would get tested to work a seasonal position for a retail store in the mall but whatever. i passed. i start working tomorrow! like actual, clock-in, taxable, work. i have a shitty shift and a shitty job, but i don't even care at this point. it will just motivate me to find a new job! and because i have to be there soo early there will always be parking at the mall! and i will get a good workout lifting boxes and stuff for 4hrs a day.
uhmmm so yeah. today is my best friend's birthday. there's a show i really want to go to tonight, even if i go by myself. i need some grateful dead music in my life soo bad. so far today i ate an apple, and then a bowl of life with a banana in it and i felt like the fattest piece of shit in the world. hopefully that's it for today though. i'm going to take a nap right now and then go into work if my friend doesn't hit me up by like noon or one.
much love xoxoxo