I wish that there was a third party monitoring my conversations (other than the gov't? ha), analyzing and then letting me know what exactly it is I've said. I am trying so hard to not be demanding or suddenly asking someone to act a certain way/fill a certain role. I am desperately trying to stay put and move forward at the same time - to be the ( Read more... )

dear internet: life is same old, same old ( Read more... )

Man, I have been eating so much junk (JUNK!) the past few months. I have a bad food-habit issue, in that if I give myself something (i.e. SUGAR) I will need to have it every day after. So I have to quit now and try to clean myself up. This will include but not be limited to ( Read more... )

best friend has finally returned from france and things feel better already ( Read more... )

I've been feeling pretty ok. still feels like there is tension and drama to work out with some friends/cohorts, but mostly I'm alright. Working a few days a week, trying to get a lot of work done for Pirates, and hanging with a friend almost every day who is interesting and complex and confusing and inspiring. sometimes too confusing. but whatever ( Read more... )

I have been having a really hard time the past week +, going through a very down period...mostly exacerbated by feeling rejected and not respected in a particular situation and not having the chance to communicate that...also exacerbated by everyone being at odds with everyone else right now, not knowing what is up with friends, people suddenly ( Read more... )

+ all done school. ALL DONE ( Read more... )

My parents are coming to visit for the first time, for my graduating recital, which is stressful enough. But I also have to think of a place for us to go to dinner tomorrow night. I need helpful suggestions please ( Read more... )

I am waiting to pee.
what the fuck is wrong with my house!??! One of my roommates (leaving soon, thanks be..) is in the bathroom running the shower/tub for hours every fucking day. holy crap. so rude and wasteful like you can't believe.

In other news boys still make me feel like crap and I hate school.

Can I withstand or afford the time lost to a 12-hour bus ride to visit rad kids in Worcester? They really want me to come, which is fantastic, but I don't know if it is the best time...but will I go another time if my arm is not bent now ( Read more... )