I don't know if I'm happy or miserable and have just come to accept it. I don't know if I'm depressed or just screaming for attention; trying to create my own personal sob story.

Why am I the way I am? Why can't I be rational, beautiful, happy, carefree, naiive, brainless, intelligent, optimistic, brilliant, wonderful, confident, real cookie ( Read more... )

I'm so close to falling off it's scary. I hate life. I hate how I'm too weak to live and too weak to die ( Read more... )

i dunno whats happened to me. I've completely lost myself and I dunno if I'll ever return back to my old self ( Read more... )

Sometimes I say some stupid things I don't mean.

If I no longer have a future, then put me at ease now ( Read more... )

My other journal has been locked (again), and so I'm turning to this (again), but it's because I really need to write. I'm going to say now that this entry isn't going to be worth your time, so you might as well X out and move on ( Read more... )

Dear mom, dad, every parent ( Read more... )

I don't know if it's ok that I savor every fake smile that I force to feel real ( Read more... )

My day has begun with a massive headache after 1 hour of sleep, but hopefully my essay proves to be worth it. I feel so shitty and I'm hoping it doesn't affect my speech, which I haven't started writing. Last night my dad decided to be a lazy ass and not cook dinner and he ate all the leftovers, so I lasted the whole fucking night on lettuce ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm emptying out when I'm already empty. I asked God for faith today, because I feel like that's the only thing that's going to keep me hanging on. I admit that I'm ashamed that I don't have a strong faith. I know that people should have beliefs, but I don't know about religion anymore. Maybe I need guidelines and restrictions and ( Read more... )