day 2: I kind of fucked up again and ate a little piece of pie, probably ~200kcal. I chewed it well and so I don't think it did SO much damage, it was all apple and not really any crust ( Read more... )

Fasting again!

Today's intake:
water: 0kcal
more water: 0kcal
coffee with fat free milk: 20kcal

more later.

Finally back in the dorms! I caved and broke my fast, but I got in a good 48 hours so it's ok. Anyway, tomorrow'a another day and I'm going to start up again. It'll be easier not to eat now that I'm in the dorms anyway.

today is the second day of my fast! I got through yesterday with only 40kcal, had to catch myself reaching for a bag of rice cakes a few times, but overall I did OK. Today's goal: more fasting and 0kcal for intake ( Read more... )

Heeheehee I am so giddy because I am finally fasting! I started today as a sort of spur-of-the-moment thing and I don't plan to stop until I absolutely have to. Fasting makes life so much simpler. I don't have to worry about calories and food constantly because there ARE none!!! I love the feeling of being empty; I don't quite have it yet but it ( Read more... )

Things I did wrong today ( Read more... )

I have been very, very angry lately. And I've already had 150kcal today. I hate everyone and everything. I didn't go to the gym. I will probably gain a ton of weight now. No hope. I hate myself SO MUCH! I wish I had a pack of cigarettes to smoke, or something- something to sabotage my disgusting body with ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a complete disaster. It's too embarassing even to think about. I hurt my foot the other day so I hadn't gone to the gym in a while but after yesterday, I decided I don't give a fuck if I hurt it even more; I'd rather be skinny with a messed up foot than the lardass piece of shit that I am now. I burned off 700kcal, which will ( Read more... )

Ew. I am fat and ugly and gross and absolutely miserable. I did ok (I guess) yesterday at about 550kcal but today is my mom's birthday. So I had to eat. For her. I am never, ever going to lose this weight. I want to fast but I can't around my parents. I want to puke but it's too late. Besides, my mom seems to suspect something's up since she asked ( Read more... )

I got coffee and a piece of pumpkin bread this morning but didn't keep it. This really is going too far but I'm having a lot of trouble stopping! I started my period yesterday and felt like crying- it was a little late and I got all excited because I thought it was finally gone... guess not.
I feel disgusting.