My esophagus has become a revolving door recently. I b/p'ed yet AGAIN on Tuesday. That makes 3 or 4 times in less than a week- at this rate I won't have any teeth left by the time I'm 25 ( Read more... )

a brief synopsis of my weekend ( Read more... )

ok well the fast and my eating situation in general was more complicated than I had hoped. My mom made me eat yesterday, and because my boyfriend was in the house, I couldn't say I had eaten with him. I feel like such a complete failure now, and I have only lost 2 pounds since I got back. This really is awful- I feel like I am standing completely ( Read more... )

well it tuns out I didn't gain back ALL the weight; why I didn't remains mysterious but I'm not going to complain. Did fine until the weekend. Somehow things got way out of control. Saturday I had all this candy and then I ended up having to eat a full meal on top of that at my friend's dad's house (didn't want to be rude and turn down what he had ( Read more... )

well I'm back from Japan where I gained back every last one of the pounds that I lost. I'm utterly disgusted with myself.

more later-- I'm at school and feel like I'm being watched.

I got a B in my organic chemistry class. I found this out yesterday and binged like crazy- crazy for me, anyway; what I ate probably didn't constitute a bona fide binge- 1 cupcake, 1 oatmeal cream pie, 5 shortbread cookies, 1 biscotti, puked most of that up (success!), drank a LOT, ate some chips to dilute that, puked that up, and passed out. I ate ( Read more... )

I feel like such a poser yet again. I am not restricting enough at all- I had almost 400 calories today (all of which was raw fruit) but I just feel fat and really, really unhappy. I want to go back to fasting but I have a dinner to go to and I know that if I fast and then eat a normal dinner or even part of one, my stomach will go insane and hurt ( Read more... )

I had to unhappily end my fast today for 2 reasons ( Read more... )

Still fasting- still very tired but relaxed. I feel as if I could do this forever, but sadly I can't as there is a family dinner at my boyfriend's on Sunday. I plan on re-feeding myself a little on Thursday and going gradually from there; hopefully I won't gain back any weight I might have lost. Speaking of which, I haven't weighed myself in what ( Read more... )

Last night I couldn't stop pulling out hair- it lasted for almost 2 hours. Fortunately it didn't do any real damage but I'd better be careful from now on. I haven't done that in so long I almost thought I'd outgrown it... sigh ( Read more... )