Current Mood: should've known....worse, did know.
Current Music: Dear John- Taylor Swift

"I see it all now that you're gone. 'Don't you think that I was too young to be messed with?' the girl in the dress cried the whole way home. I should've known. Well, maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame. Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love ( Read more... )

Current Mood: "Why must human interaction be so tedious and tiresome?"
Current Music: Don't bother- Shakira

"For you, I'd give up all I own and move to a communist country-- If you came with me, of course. And I'd file my nails so they don't hurt you. And lose those pounds, and learn about football... If it made you stay, but you won't..." (I no ( Read more... )

I feel so much emptier right now. Not even just in a depressed kind of way, but every aspect of my life right now feels lighter, more void of aim or meaning ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm going crazy. I feel like something snapped in my brain. I feel like... I actually feel a little crazy and psychotic right now. I feel confused. I feel like I don't even exist. I feel like my entire existence is a lie. I feel like ( Read more... )

Current mood: normalized
Current Music: World Spins Madly On- The Weepies

"I woke up and wished that I was dead, with an aching in my head. I lay motionless in bed. I thought of you, and where you'd gone... I just got lost and slept right through the dawn..."

Okay, so last night I hit rock bottom in this break-up. I think. Or maybe I didn't, maybe I ( Read more... )

Current Mood: I give up
Current Music: none

"You let it ruin your life."

So, Mike will not take me back, and I've pushed the issue so much this time that I don't even know if he'll come back to me again next time.

And I just don't feel like trying at love anymore. I don't feel like trying at anything. I don't even feel like living anymore. As pathetic ( Read more... )

Current Mood: Burned.
Current Music: n/a

"I told you so."

So, I played with fire again. I had fun in the flames. I thought the flames loved me, what with the way they embraced me and held me in their arms every night when I slept at Fire's house.

Fire is heartless. It is beautiful and captivating. It can embrace you in warmth and ignite your heart.

But ( Read more... )

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Current mood: miserable.
Current Music: none

"Sorry."

Do you currently feel bad for any reason?
Yes. Mike. I am miserable.

Do you get frustrated quickly?
Usually.

How do you decide if you can trust someone or not?
I don't know, I just feel them out.

When was the last time you gave a heartfelt apology to someone?
Whenever I last apologized to Mike.

If you can' ( Read more... )

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