I give up.
Current Mood: I give up
Current Music: none
"You let it ruin your life."
So, Mike will not take me back, and I've pushed the issue so much this time that I don't even know if he'll come back to me again next time.
And I just don't feel like trying at love anymore. I don't feel like trying at anything. I don't even feel like living anymore. As pathetic as it is, now that I've had a taste of happiness, known how it felt to hold it in my arms and be consumed with it, I can't go back. I just wish I could get him back, but no amount of torturing him is going to change his mind or make him really love me. Obviously it was all a lie. Obviously he was faking it. Obviously he doesn't give a fuck.
I can't change that.
I just can't stop wanting it either. I want my happiness back, and I can't have it. I was given another cruel taste, just a reminder of what it felt like, only to have it taken from me again. And I don't know what else to do. I don't know how else to fight. He won't even text me back. He's ignoring me.
If he cared, he wouldn't do this.
And I think I deserve someone who cares, I just don't have the heart to try to find it.
I don't even want to live anymore, but I can't kill myself 'cause I don't want to go to hell.
I still don't feel like loving anymore.
I meant to say LIVING, that was a slip.
I just feel like giving up.
Current Music: none
"You let it ruin your life."
So, Mike will not take me back, and I've pushed the issue so much this time that I don't even know if he'll come back to me again next time.
And I just don't feel like trying at love anymore. I don't feel like trying at anything. I don't even feel like living anymore. As pathetic as it is, now that I've had a taste of happiness, known how it felt to hold it in my arms and be consumed with it, I can't go back. I just wish I could get him back, but no amount of torturing him is going to change his mind or make him really love me. Obviously it was all a lie. Obviously he was faking it. Obviously he doesn't give a fuck.
I can't change that.
I just can't stop wanting it either. I want my happiness back, and I can't have it. I was given another cruel taste, just a reminder of what it felt like, only to have it taken from me again. And I don't know what else to do. I don't know how else to fight. He won't even text me back. He's ignoring me.
If he cared, he wouldn't do this.
And I think I deserve someone who cares, I just don't have the heart to try to find it.
I don't even want to live anymore, but I can't kill myself 'cause I don't want to go to hell.
I still don't feel like loving anymore.
I meant to say LIVING, that was a slip.
I just feel like giving up.