Current Mood: insecure
Current Music: Demi Lovato- Trash

"I'm sick of crying about you and your new flame..."

So... I have discovered that I don't like my days off, because they give me too much time to think and have down time, and then I have a chance to realize how utterly alone and ostracized I actually feel.

Which is bad.

The good news is, this is ( Read more... )

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"Good girl gone bad..."

So, just a little update.

Currently waiting for Mike to text me to tell me whether or not he can meet me tonight.

However, I have gotten that he would like to. He just isn't sure because, wait for it.... he has a lot to do tonight.

Yep, story of my life.

"Babe, I'm just not sure if I can do you ( Read more... )

Current Mood: Self-destructive
Current Music: I Look so Good Without You- Jessie James & Dirty Little Secret- AAR

"What happened to good girl Sam?"

Good question.

So... yeah.

You know how I was all like, "New hair, new life!" just a second ago?

That was a lovely speech.  It was. I liked it. Empowered. Strong. Forward-thinking.

Here's the thing.

When I ( Read more... )

Current Mood: rejuvinated
Current Music: Jessie James- I Look So Good Without You

"Got me a new hair do, lookin' fresh and brand new!"

So, I've decided that it's good that the previously obsessed about pothole in my life happened BEFORE June 6th, because June 6th is like an anniversary of sorts for me. An ironic, ballsy anniversary, but it is an ( Read more... )

I feel so much emptier right now. Not even just in a depressed kind of way, but every aspect of my life right now feels lighter, more void of aim or meaning ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm going crazy. I feel like something snapped in my brain. I feel like... I actually feel a little crazy and psychotic right now. I feel confused. I feel like I don't even exist. I feel like my entire existence is a lie. I feel like ( Read more... )

Current Mood: stunned ( Read more... )

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Current Music: Colbie Caillat

So, don't mistake my bluster for... anything more than what it is.

Fact: I DESPERATELY want to be with Jeremy. I want to know what it would be like to be with him, regardless of the fact that life with him will never ever be as conventional or romantic as love is in the movies. I'm not a putz, and I know ( Read more... )

Current Mood: empowered
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Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Wanted Jessie James & Halo- Beyonce

"She spent her whole life waiting." - my epitaph

"Now I'm going crazy, I'm tired of waiting, my lips are on fire, I just want you to know I'm losing my patience for the time that you've wasted..."

So, I've decided since I need to do something with myself, I should tell you a little ( Read more... )