I am at the beginning of an expanse of nothingness, as farad the eye can see.

Alone.

Terrified.

I will use the desolation, the nothingness, as a blank canvas, upon whose vast, beautiful, terrifying canvas i will paint and construct and sculpt nothing but my own potential.

The funny thing about breaking up is that you get lonely ( Read more... )

I keep wondering whether somehow the veil will life and everything will finally be okay.

It's not bad. It's not good. At least, neither constantly. But I'm exhausted and I just want things to be okay.

Moving here has continued to be stressful, not just individually but to our relationship.

There has to be a light at the end of the tunnel. We just ( Read more... )

The last few days have been awesome. So many cuddles and "I love yous". So much good out of what I worried were the ruins of a once-ruined relationship. I am allowing a tiny ray of hope. I am allowing the love, reaps short lived, t conquer all. I am all own that maybe good, and love, might triumph.

I hope I'm right.because despite the problems... I' ( Read more... )

My life is some kind of opera-style misunderstanding-based clusterfuck at all times. If I don't condense this into a book, it would be tragic.

How do we persevere regardless of our mutual questioning? What we have is so strong. So right. But a shaky house built on a solid foundation... Bah, I won't go into the whole thing. The future is so uncertain ( Read more... )

I'll be honest - sometimes I really don't know what to write here anymore.  I feel that so many years of expressing my angst, struggles, triumphs and defeats in San Francisco both empowered and deflated me in terms of expressing myself about my life ( Read more... )

Having a relationship is HARD ( Read more... )

I think the moving and school and work (or, lack of the two aforementioned things) is taking a rough, rough toll.

These next few weeks will be trying and every day seems long and difficult.

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Relationships take a lot of work and a lot of really weird turns.

I think that's what makes them worthwhile.

Stress and change. But it's all par for the course I guess.

That's how you make something work.