I last posted in January.
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Been watching a lot of Superwoman lately, and she has is super motivation. She tries to push herself every single day, to achieve as much as she can. I need that kind of energy in my life right now, because I am unmotivated. So we have a list to go through and hopefully, I will get stuff done. .

I have got up early today, went with my mum to the ( Read more... )

I only seem to come on here to complain and moan these days. It doesn't bother me too much, as it always helps having somewhere I can rant. Although, it might not be so interesting for anyone to read. This evening I have been studying networking, for my IT course, and I have 1s and 0s coming out of my ears, as I have been converting IP addresses ( Read more... )

Sorry.

There has been no updates in a while. I feel like I have been saying that a lot, but it had to happen. I have been having a really bad time with my mental health recently, so I just stayed away from everything. Things were bothering me way too easy. I found myself in tears just looking at my Facebook feed, so I just tried to stay away for a ( Read more... )

2017 was a bit of a disaster, creative wise. I only posted 11 entries on here last year. (Oops!) And, whilst I have every intention to pull myself into gear in 2018, I'll be honest and say that the year has started off a little bit of a total cuntbag shitfest.

Why?

Well, just before Christmas, my 11 year old (second??)cousin, Owen, was out playing ( Read more... )

In my bed before 10pm. Yep, I'm that sad. In fairness this week is 55 hours, meaning I'm working 7-6.30 for 5 days. It's utterly exhausting. Just have to keep focusing on the extra money I'll get at the end of the week ( Read more... )

Uch.
Today has not been a good mental health day. I'm just really getting down, haven't heard from Amazon about a shift yet. Which is stressing me out.

I never did hear about the job at CeX. So I can't get a job I'm qualified to do. It's depressing as fuck. I hate applying for everything, it seems like it doesn't matter what I do. Working since I ( Read more... )

I hate feelings.

Sometimes I just think it would be great to be numb. To not feel anything. You'd miss out on love, but I could live with that if it meant I wouldn't be so agitated. It would be worth it, just so I could sleep, so I could relax and do nothing, like I used to.

Thinking back is not helping. Not that I can help it. When I think back, it ( Read more... )

Right now, I do not know ( Read more... )

Be aware that most of the things that I talk about on here, is created by my head. In that they are situations which I can get through if I don't moan. I seem to focus on the bad stuff and it really gets me down. And noone seems to understand ( Read more... )