Fell Apart
Sorry.
There has been no updates in a while. I feel like I have been saying that a lot, but it had to happen. I have been having a really bad time with my mental health recently, so I just stayed away from everything. Things were bothering me way too easy. I found myself in tears just looking at my Facebook feed, so I just tried to stay away for a bit.
I did try to write a few times, but nothing came out. It didn't feel that anything I wanted say was natural. Everything seemed forced. And I don't like that. Writing in a blog is the one thing I do that is honest online. It is a big part of helping me get rid of the emotional crap in my head. And not being able to do it is a little frustrating.
But, tonight, with Red Dwarf on the telly, I decided to try and sit down and type something. I feel crap you see. I was supposed to go to a manager's leaving do last night, but never went cause I had a huge panic attack. It's awful, and I feel really back cause I let people down. I wish I could logically explain it, but I can't and it annoys me.