So, by my calculations of when I took my dose of Nyquil I should be asleep by now. Granted, I only took a half dose, since I need to be a relatively awake human being in the morning to go to work (and have to operate the heavy machinery of my car), but still. Perhaps I slept too much today ( Read more... )

The thing that will kill me in the end, barring any kind of illness or freak accident, will probably be stress and my inability to relax. I was noticing last night just how much tension I hold in my body and how hard it is for me to allow myself to relax. Even when I have the time to do so, I feel guilty for not doing something productive and then ( Read more... )

I went to see my PsychRN this morning. She checked my bp, which she said was off the charts. We made some med adjustments and I will be increasing my triliptal to help with mood stablization. She wrote me a note so I did not have to go to school today or work tomorrow. I have orders to get bloodwork, drink tons of water, and generally try to relax ( Read more... )

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Things are quiet. Today has been long, but many good things happened including meeting and having conversations with a few new people, a breakthrough on the website problem I was having, a good therapy session, and ending the evening in the company of my best friend and the beasties at her place ( Read more... )

My normal state as a bipolar person is somewhere in the hypomanic realm. Its always been this way. That is what they call my "baseline". No matter what or how much medication I take, this is where I end up. Which is pretty OK as long as I don't go either up or down from here. Of course, I am geographically closer to full blown mania from my current ( Read more... )

I am trying to decide what the responsible choice for me is this coming semester. I've signed up for four classes, one of which is pure fluff...as in it won't count towards my degree and I've used up all my ARTS & Humanities credits. The state has already paid my tuition bill, so its paid for ( Read more... )

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I crashed last night. It was bound to happen. With all the stress from finals, and a crappy encounter with my boss added to the extreme exhaustion that I feel I just kind of lost it momentarily last night ( Read more... )

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