( Therapist & psychiatrist musings/notes. )

So. Why I'm so interested in seeing my psychiatrist this week ( Read more... )

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This is from last night. I'm doing better now.

I'm so fucking scared I'm going to relapse. ( Or maybe I already have. [paperwork, psychiatry, medication] )

I've been listening to Teenagers by My Chemical Romance on repeat for the last two hours. Wish I'd known about this song when I was a teenager, I'm sure I would've annoyed the living shit out of everyone by declaring it to be my theme song, like I'm also sure thousands of teenagers have done.

Last few weeks: overview ( Read more... )

So I feel really good today. Of course that's with about ... -calculates- twenty five dollars worth of medication! A day.

That means I'm choking down roughly 750 dollars worth of medication a month just to feel mildly interested in things and to have the ability to think optimistically. Sweet.So my psychiatrist handed over the adderall and ( Read more... )

Took 10 mgs of Adderall this morning. No apparent effect, besides that of a good dose of caffeine.

Social Security denied my claim again.

Next step, administrative law judge.

I wasn't really expecting it to be approved but I had some faint hopes.

Meeting with SLC worker went okay. No deaths or car bombings*, mostly administrative stuff.

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Adderall never kicked in. Or at least I never FELT it kick in, like I was supposed to.

However, I'm still awake 12 hours later. I describe this as epic fail.

(12 hours and 3 mg of klonopin later, I might add.)

Medication update ( Read more... )

I'm spending the week with my boyfriend and I should be happy but instead all I keep wanting to do is break up with him so I can kill myself. Or because he doesn't "deserve" to be with someone who would put him through the pain of having to have someone that you love be depressed ( Read more... )