Wide awake at 6AM. Unfortunately no one else is. Except my dad, amusingly enough-- eh.

So my big frightening thing is that I may actually get in to see a PCP for the first time in years (my MI has been treated by a great team who are funded through the state, but physical health isn't funded through that program) and I have all these things I ( Read more... )

Had my second opinion appointment with a different psychiatrist on Monday ( Read more... )

( Therapist & psychiatrist musings/notes. )

This is from last night. I'm doing better now.

I'm so fucking scared I'm going to relapse. ( Or maybe I already have. [paperwork, psychiatry, medication] )