External validation is only ever a temporary fix. I've known this for a few years, but getting it is so much simpler than doing work on myself. I used to get external validation by having sex with many strangers. Now I do it by asking people to tell me good things about myself. I am going to start telling me what is good about me ( Read more... )

Today's positive affirmation: Concentrate on one thing at a time. Hopefully that'll get me off the worry wheel. I'm going to keep a running 'I ought to' list in the living room for now. An 'I ought to' list is not quite the same thing as a to-do list. I write down the things that I'm procrastinating about and angsting that I haven't done, and ( Read more... )

In the last few days I have had two people come back to my place for frolics after picking them up in fairly geeky environments. It's not a personal record or anything, but I thought I'd grown out of that. Anyhow, it's been fun ( Read more... )

I'm going to write about my weight/food issues/connected emotions on this, my main journal, rather than maryfat for a while. I may use maryfat for day to day stuff that doesn't really talk about the bigger picture. ( I shall be putting most of this sort of thing behind a cut )