i'm going to continue w talk therapy about typical life stuff and for medication monitoring for my bipolar II/cyclothymia but i am going to do something else about my real psychopathology ( Read more... )

To be or not to be, that is the question;
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing, end them. To die, to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to - 'tis a consummation
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since the lamictal started working, i have lacked that certain yucky place i so quickly go.... i don't feel numb though - just sort of protected from falling.... or at least falling AS far ( Read more... )

getting off effexor without government funded IV poles filled with electrolytes, liquid nutrition and morphine should be illegal ( Read more... )

before i can even sit here to write what i feel truly moved to, i must first purge this abilify induced anxiety shit from my system ( Read more... )

http://bipolar-disorder.emedtv.com/abilify/abilify-side-effects.html

perhaps i am scared of abilify ( Read more... )

my emotions have been ridiculous today ( Read more... )

today i feel oddly calm...
is it the new mix o' meds my new doc has me on or is it instead some mean, insidious and devious in-between-land that is meant to deceive and mock me just before it thrusts me into a spin of up or down?

i shall choose to believe it is meds with a bit of contentedness thrown in.

but i am prepared if it IS the lie...

the lie i ( Read more... )

Had 3rd session w new therapist.... Still undecided as 2 whether or not I'm sold on her or not but she's def not BAD.... She referred me 2 a psych nurse practitioner and I REALLY liked her ( Read more... )